Business….

Oh finally, im on the last part legwork of my business. My hubby gave me this Kowloon Franchise which will serve as my baby too. I had a very hectic schedule today, went to my store to take photos since my business permit isn’t the normal one. I need to secure to historical clearance and the likes. But finally it’s almost done. Hopefully, next week I will be able to start. 🙂

Last night, my hubby mentioned to me that instead of our plan in going to Greece alone, he said we might as well have like his friend’s cruise… A Mediterranean tour…. I was shocked and stunned. Didn’t expect I’d be able to have such cruise. Anyways, it will be next year so I will have lots of time to prepare my body after giving birth.

And right now, I am overwhelmed with the blessings I am receiving. Having a great husband, expecting for a wonderful kid, my family and my new baby, My Kowloon franchise….

Love you baby!

….

As I move forward and excited about the baby, there are still some anxieties that I cannot remove from my head. Anxieties that I just all within myself.

It’s hard to pretend it’s not happening, but why not, it is happening to me. It’s here, a reality I cannot ignore. Does it always have to include pains in every joy a person will have? Or can it just be plain happiness with no consequences involved? I have tried to live a fair life, a life wherein other people’s need is more important than my needs. I have neglected my needs for a long time and it’s not good.

Now the happiness I am longing for is within my reach or shall I say it’s in my hand but why can’t I be happy without feeling this pain inside me. I try to tell myself, it’s all in my head but it is not. No matter what I do, it’s there, right in front of my face.

How can I be truly happy? Is it something that’s so hard to achieve? Something I don’t deserve?

Why I cant have the whole pie, but instead just have a slice of it and share the entire pie with others?

Why? Am I that bad? Do I deserve this? I know a lot of people will just tell me, then walk away… But how can you walk away from the only happiness you ever have in your entire life? I wish it could be that easy… I wish it’s as easy as saying, “Leave if you can’t take it anymore”… But it’s not the solution to problem. It’s just an immediate solution but not a lifetime one. Once it’s there, the effect could be far worse than holding on.

Now what am I suppose to do, I’m lost and confused..

And it’s here.. Finally..

Oh well I have not updating my blog lately since I need a bed rest. I am currently on my way to 6 weeks pregnancy and getting and getting excited to see my baby.

I hope that my baby will be a girl, and that she will grow  God fearing, loving, healthy and most of all strong like his papa.

Oh my hubby is so excited, we are both hoping to have a baby girl so he could have his princess. 🙂

There is nothing more exciting and fun knowing that I will be a mom soon.  But whenever I think of my angel’s coming, there are still some fear in me that sets in. Most of all is, will I ever be a good mom?

I just hope that I will be able to raise my kid like my parents did to us. I pray to God that He will give us a healthy baby and that He will always keep her safe.

Till next time..

xoxo

I hope this is it…

I’m having this weird bleeding since last week. Not a regular menstruation I guess but rather a very short or most likely spotting only. I wonder if this what you call ‘implantation bleeding’. I am expecting to have my period this 24th, but I am hoping and praying that I am really pregnant. According to my doctor, I am showin’ signs of a pregnant woman, coz if I do now, I am on my third week.

But things aren’t always goin’ smoothly lately. Most of the times I feel so alone and just tryin to cover all the pains inside me. I try to smile so no one would know that I am hurting..

I guess I am good at it. Been good at it the longest time I can remember.

Now May 15 is also near, I need to prepare myself for looking for a new job. I cannot afford to be totally dependent on my bf. Especially if I am pregnant. I need to find a new job before May ends.

In these past three months, all I do is wonder. Whether I would still want a 8-5 job or I would want to set up my own biz.  I will be getting a separation pay and I might use it for small biz. But darn, deep inside of me I am scared. What if the biz won’t work out? What will happen to me and my baby if in case?

A lot of things have been goin’ on my head. I have no one to talk to. I envy those people who have a lot of friends. I do have friends but they are too far right now. Some of them, they just left me. Now I am missing Jen.. I wish she’s here.

And right now, my bf and I argue a lot. And sometimes, I just want to give up. But should I give up now if I have a baby now?

Right now, I dunno what to do?

My Wishlist

Oh well I know it’s kinda late now for my this year’s wishlist. However I would like to share it you. Too bad the idea just came to my head just last night while lying on my bed.

As you know, I will be losing my job on May 15 because of redundancy. The fact I will be losing my job makes me feel scared since I am supporting my family. But the fact that I know I can surpass this crisis since I’ve got the most loving, patient and supporting husband. (Oh well I considered him as my husband aight?!)

Okay now here’s my wishlist for this year:

1. Have a baby.. Well I hope its a baby girl since my hubby wants to have a princess. He’s excited to have a baby so his wish is my top priority. I guess He has always been my top priority since we were together.

2. Make my small business ventures a success. I have decided to start my small business. It is a fragrance business and I am planning to sell it to my friends and put some at my sister’s resto. Her place is a nice place to put one since there are a lot of students there. If this will be a hit, I am planning to start another one, an e-loading business. Oh well, I would love to have this business. Not that I’m lazy aight, but I don’t want to work anymore because I want to concentrate on taking care of my family. My husband and specially if I will get pregnant this year, our baby..

3. Find a new job. I would want to find new job but not as hectic as my previous one. I want a less stressful job so I will have more time taking care of my family.

4. To be less jealous. Oh well, insecurities always hits me. I am insecure of those girls paying attention to my sexy love. I know I am not pretty nor sexy and that makes me more insecure when he gives attention to those girls. Eventhough he would always tell me I’ve got the most beautiful brown eyes he have ever seen.

5. Learn to trust him again. We’ve got lot of issues lately and this is one thing I should try my best to learn…. To trust him again. I won’t elaborate further but I hope God will help me.

6. Enjoy every moment of my life. We’ll we will never know until when He will get us. But enjoying every moment of our life will at least make us feel more complete. Regrets will not be there but just pure satisfaction.

7. Love him more. I guess I have been loving him less because of my jealousy. I just hope it’s not too late.

I guess this is for it now… I think its doable…

Ciao!

Friday the 13th…

I honestly don’t know what to post or something. But a lot of us believe that Friday the 13th is unlucky well I guess yes it is.

Right now I feel nothing. Maybe still shocked and disoriented still with what happened. I didn’t expect that I will get my “redundancy letter” today. Stroke of bad luck, I will no longer have a job soon.

I don’t want to lose hope, I know I will find a job soon. I just hope and pray I will..

Cant write anything right now, my mind is shattered and I don’t even know if I”m writing it to release what I feel. I am worried about my family now. Specially I am sending my niece to school. 😦

Oh well, ces’t lavie.  I entrust everything to you Lord.

God thy will be done..

Missing you

Dear Love,

I wish I didn’t have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. But then again, I know that the day will come when I will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. I even miss you when I am sleeping!

I love you, babe. You are my first and my only love, and I thank you for be so kind with my heart. Hopefully, soon I won’t have to hate missing you.

Love Always,

Baby

Back to work

Tomorrow will be my first day back to work. I dunno what to expect and what to do. After long hiatus of being professional, I know it will need time again for me to be able to grasp my daily routine.

This year, we will be moving to new office. I will definitely miss our great building today. We got great lobby and a very impressive facade. But I guess it would be better to move to smaller office than losing our jobs right?

Oh well, tomorrow is another day for a new yea. I hope this year will be a better year for us.

I’ll cross my fingers.. Till then

2009 Resolutions

2009 is almost coming, today is 30th already and one more day its the first day of the year. I would normally make New Year’s resolutions however, out of say 5 I made, I will only be able to achieve 3 of those. I would normally wonder why, but I realized, its more on, I would normally find reason why its impossible for me to achieve it.

But this year, I have resolutions again which I have started working this year. Its more on continuation of the things I have started already:

1. Lose more weight.. Yeah I have lost 30 lbs already in one month. And not bad if I lose more say 10-15 more lbs.

2. Get a new job. Oh well eventhough I am waiting for a new job, I will still try to look for new job too. Better have a fallback than nothing at all.

3. Have a baby. Yes once I lost weight, me and my hubby are planning to have our little angel next year. We hope it’s gonna be a baby girl. Since we will be naming our name as Althea Nicole. But if its gonna be a baby boy, it will be Inigo Miguel. Cute isn’t it?

4. Start a little business. By saving more this year, I might be able to start again my online store. I used to have an online store but I never had the chance to take it seriously since I am too scared that I may not be able to get back my capital. But hey, if I will not take the risk, how will my money earn aight?

5. Be the best partner and mother. Once we have our baby, I hope and will try my best to be the best I can be. I am trying to be the best partner he can have right now and I just hope that I can also be a good mom.

Right now these are the resolutions I made. And I hope I will be able to achieve all.

Till next year’s resolutions… Ciao!

Goin’ stronger

Last week has been a very nice and peaceful week for us. Although last week, my love is quite restless because of his problems. I understand how he feels, a lot of people depends on him. He has to be strong. I realized that our relationship is getting stronger and makes us more closer to each other.

I was surprised when he told me last Tue, “You know I got a song for you?”. And I asked, “What is it?”.. So he let me listen to this song..

Who would have thought a guy like him would dedicate such cute and romantic song for a girl. While he was singing at the top of his voice with matching dance choreography, I felt so loved and appreciated. No one has ever made me feel like this. I asked him if the entire lyrics is dedicated to me, oh well some of us just dedicate certain part of a song aight? But he said, “yes, my baby love. The entire song is how I feel and you make me feel”.  Below is the lyrics of this song.. It really made me calm whenever I feel like bursting. After listening to this song, I listen to this song everyday to start my day right..

(Nicole)
I remember like it was yesterday
first kiss and I knew you changed the game
you had me, exactly, where you wanted
and i’m on it, and I aint ever gon let you get away
holding hands never made me feel this way
so special, boy its your..
your smile, we so in Love (lalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in Love (Lalalalalaaa)
and I just can’t get enough of your
lalala Lovee
yeeah we so in love LOVE
I want you to know…

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

In a minute now we’re still holding it down
butterflies everytime he come around
you make me, so crazy, its crazy, ohh baby
I don’t ever wanna be with no one else
you’re the only one that ever made me mad
you’re special, boy it’s your, your style
we so in Love (lalalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in love Lalalalalalaa
and I just can’t get enough
of your lalala Love
yeah thats all i’m thinking of
LOVE, I want you to know

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up

ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

(Guy)
You always and forever you my sunshine
on my mind constant
think about you all the time (you’re my everything)

(Nicole)
Everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

(Guy)
you ma new school (love)
you ma old school (love)
and it’s true you’re the one i’m thinking of

(Nicole)
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up ( you make the sun come up on a cloudy day)
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

you are my baby baby baby babe love

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

you’re my everything
you are my baby baby baby baby love

And then Saturday came, I was like texting him and I felt he was cold. But to my surprise, he called me and I was shocked that he introduced me to his bestfriend. And I was speechless to know what he was telling to his friends about me. His bestfriend told me that my love told him that I am smart, caring, thoughtful, loving and someone he can talk in straight English. The last part really made me laugh. And his bestfriend asked me if I can introduce him to someone like me, because he also wants to get what my boyfriend is experiencing now. And my boyfriend said ” Sorry, she is mine and nobody can be like her”. It made me smile and realized that he is really proud of me.

Maybe in the last past few weeks, I was afraid to trust him. Not that I don’t love him, but I have been hurt a lot of times before. And when I realized just how much proud he is of me, I told myself, enough of my doubts and fears. I should learn to trust him that no matter what happens, he will always be my love. We are destined for each other. We both came in our lives, just right in time. In time we both need someone to love, hang on and share our burdens. This makes us more closer and appreciate each other more. We are not perfect, but we know that despite our flaws, we can see a perfect person for us. Because they made us better person. We both feel that we are willing to spend the rest of our lives with each other. Just like what he said and the song goes, I make the sun goes up and I am everything he dream of, I am his everything.

There is only one rule in love. And that is to make you love happy

I love you so much baby. I want you to be the father my baby. I am excited and happy as we both enjoy our journey called life. You’re my everything baby love.

Holdin’ on…

I am surprised to how long I can hold on to someone I love now. I used to be someone who can easily let go and just move on, without looking behind. But now, with what’s going on in our relationship, I am quite surprised on how much patience I am giving just to hold on and to fight for this relationship. I never knew I have that capability. I thought I am just someone who can easily move on and let go after someone said goodbye. But with him, I don’t expect I can hold on this longer despite all the pains and heartaches I am going through.

I think that is part of loving, the pain. Did I try to forget that pain is a package when you’re loving? Yes, I did. But I realized its inevitable. It will always be there. Sometimes, too much loving can also cause pain and sometimes we cannot avoid that.. And we are doing it ‘unconsciously’.

I don’t know I can love someone like him. I don’t expect I can even give this kind of love to someone. That I am capable of giving love and continue loving that person despite the heartaches he is giving me. Maybe this is what I call true love. Not trying to be masochist, it’s reality. I never felt this love so strong.

But I am no saint. I may have tantrums sometimes, which I think is just normal. I am not perfect. I may cry a lot because that’s the only way I can release the pains I feel inside. But till then, I pray that someday, everything will fall into the right place. “God thy will be done..”

Future together

Last night while love was here, I was surprised that he knew how to read palm. And on his reading, he mentioned that I will end up with the second guy I love. I’m starting to wonder, I didn’t tell him anything about my exes and my past relationships with him. Because he believes that whatever in past should remain in the past so we don’t dwell too much in talking about my ex boyfriends. I don’t think he does even know how many boyfriends I had before.

Too my surprise he said, I will end up with the second guy I have love. And I was like, “Oh my, there’s two of them I genuinely love”. Honestly, there’s only two of them I really cried and felt the fear of losing them. I just realized that what I felt with my ex isn’t really “love”. I mean, I love them but the whole of them. Maybe I was just in love with the idea that I love them but I don’t really feel it in my heart. Now that explains why I never felt so lonely nor hurt when we broke up. I thought before, I just really don’t know how to cry and when that reading happened last night, I was stunned and surprised.

I don’t regret ending up with him. I must say that he is the best guy I ever with. We have our own ups and downs but it doesn’t stop us from loving one another. Our fights and arguments are just merely way of telling one another that we are already hurting but that doesn’t mean we will give up on our relationship.

We were happy with what happened last night. Funny for other people it may seems but for us it means a lot. That even our palms says we will end up together. Btw, he was kinda sad when he said I will end up with the second guy I loved. And that’s the time I told him, “I never told you this before but there’s only two of you that I really cried and beg not to leave me. You’re the second guy I cried and beg not to leave me”. His face lit up and hug me. And he said, ” I am happy to be with you”.. Awww so sweet…

Now I think time to be more relaxed. I love him and he loves me. There’s nothing I want more. Just to be with him is enough for me to go on and live a full and contented life.

I love you my sexy love… muuah

Cold weather

Hmm the weather right now, since we got a storm. Just makes me wonder why it always rains when we are together. Is it a sign or a blessing? I just wonder…

Last night, as I watched you having good time with my bro, I wonder, is it a sign that you are indeed my soulmate. I don’t believe in soulmate in the first place, I think it’s very idealistic. But with you, I just knew, you’re everything I have been hoping to be with. Someone that makes me complete.

I really cannot find the right words to say on how much I love you. I guess with the things I am doing for you, it is enough for you to know and feel it right.

My only wish is that we will last forever, funny as it is when you said ” I will love you even if you look like raisins. And you’re stuck with me”…. 🙂

I love you baby and thanks for loving me and also my family.

Happy birthday to me?

My birthday last night didn’t started out the way I wanted it though. In morning, I was in the hotel with my boss to finish our assessment for our client. In the afternoon, I was rushing to the mall to buy some boxers for love. However, I didn’t know that my birthday will start with tears and a small confrontation.

Love and I was exchanging text messages and thought we are just playing around the usual thing we do. I was just surprise to find out, he took one of my messages seriously. Arrgghh, damn, I was crying like hell because he wouldn’t want to be with me last night.

So I was drank to cover up the pain I feel inside. But he finally said he will be coming over to see me. I don’t know but with happened last night, something tells me, I should be back with my old self. Building walls to let no one hurt me.

I had worst experiences that I could ever imagine, most of them were abusive. This is one is quite different that made me decide that I should let him get that close to me and trust him like I never did before. I remember this quote that was sent to me once “Love like you were never hurt before:… And that’s what I am doing now.

I am just waiting for next year. We are planning to have our baby. Maybe by that time, I will no longer be hurt like this. I’ve got my baby… I know some of you will tell me, “Oh baby isn’t the answer”, but for me, that is the best thing I could do.

So this journey continues. I shall write more with my journey with him, what do you think?

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

Wonderful night

I had a wonderful night yesterday. As you know, I will be with my sexy love. So we were chatting that yesterday afternoon and told him I have to go ahead since I have to prepare our dinner. But he insisted of picking me up instead since he miss me a lot. We haven’t seen each other for a week and he was so excited to see me. So he picked me up from work and as we drove home, he can’t help but hold me my hands and keep on kissing it. I find it sweet. And it was a lovely feeling to be honest. On our way home, I can’t help but stare at him. I told myself, how lucky I am to be with this guy. He told me how much he loves, I think he never failed to say to me. One thing that made me smile was his effort to buy me this special shaped chocolates. He said, he finds it cute so he thinks, it will be cute as well for me… Hmm, he can read my mind.

When we arrived home, I immediately spent my time preparing our dinner. I cooked beef afritada. So while cooking, I know I am in love because I can’t help but smile. I know that there will be problems we will encounter in the future but, that won’t stop us from loving one another. I know sometimes I get jealous oh well I think that is normal right? But last night, I had this assurance that he truly loves me and that I should trust him. I mean I trust him but I don’t trust those girls around him 😀

I love you baby and I am glad you’re mine 🙂

I finally found someone

Oh well, a lot of people said this line. In fact this line is considered ‘overused’. But hey the line in this song, I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet. I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete. I am with this great guy that makes my whole world complete. I know sounds cheesy but hey that’s the fact. I never thought I would never find someone like him. Someone who will do anything just to be with me.

One thing I have learned from loving this guy is that, never expect anything in return when you love someone. And always tell them how important they are to you. This will boost their morale and also will love you even more.

I am no expert when it comes to love. I failed a lot of times, but with those failures, I became who I am now. He would always tells me that “It gets worst before getting better”. Well true. I have been into a lot of shitty relationships, pasts where I thought I would never make it. But hey after all those heartaches, pains and sorrows, I found him.

God knows what you really need in order to succeed. He will never give you something without you learning something. After tough times I have been through, He gave something worth keeping for a lifetime. A gift more precious than anything else in this world.

I love everything about him. His flaws are included too. I think that is true love huh? When you can still love that person beyond those imperfection. Oh well no one is perfect and he even said, he think he is bad for me but he will try his best to be good. For me not to regret choosing to be with him.

I am just so lucky, lucky enough to be with someone who can love me back the way I love him. Well, I think more than I do. He do everything just to make me feel love and cared for. I feel his support in everything I do and I know he is always proud of my achievements, big or small, he is still proud of me. Oh, how I love this guy.

But I know there would be times that we might hurt each other. But I think that is part of a relationship. But I know we will never hurt one another ‘intentionally’. But it will draw us together closer. In our hearts, mind and soul, we are married to one another. 🙂 And I think that’s what’s important.

Till then!

Special day

My computer clock says 12:05, 5 minutes ago, it is our monthsary. How time flies if you’re in love. The feeling is so strong and it made me forget the rest.  It brings back smile to me how we end up together. It all started with a joke. 🙂

That day, I really wanted erase him from my contact list (both cellphone and chikka). Why? I know all his dark secrets that I think if another girl would be listening, would be a huge turn off for them. But it happened differently in my case. I fell for this great guy.

He admits being playboy, loves to love girls. As he always says, he has a lot of love to give. But I still wonder until now, why I do love him this much. The foundation of our relationship are friendship and trust.

So when the 24th came, I was already decided to erase him from my contact list if he won’t even feel that I do like him. Yes, I am willing to take the risk to be with him. So when I texted him, he replied to me, asking me how I was and the likes. Till we end up talking about the guy whom he is suppose to set me up. Then I blurted out, “Hay hirap talaga magkahowe.” (*sigh*, it is hard to find a boyfriend), then he replied to me, “Can I be your howe?”. Surprised but smiling, that’s what I felt. And I asked him, “Are you serious?”, then he said “Yes”.

So there we end up being together. Then he admitted, he fell in love with me long time ago. But didn’t bother to pursue it because with all the things he had told me, there would be no reason for me to love him. But he was surprised to find out, I fell in love with him despite those.

One by one, he dropped all his girls and told me, he never felt this kind of love for the longest time. Most of the girls he was with are nothing serious and the other one is just because he feel pity for that girl that is why he can’t leave her. The last time he felt this kind of love was when he was in college, with his first love. I was blushing and smiling. I know he was telling me the truth. During the time when we were friends, he never lied to me. And that’s what we promised to each other, to never lie. Tell the truth even if it hurts.

And now, we reached our monthsary. I can’t help but smile. I am so happy to have a wonderful man with me. Someone who loves me and cares for me. Someone who completes me.

I am in love

For the longest time, I had the sweetest sleep ever. I was with my love till morning. We just do nothing, just cuddle up, laugh and stare at each other. I never felt so loved except last night. I know by the way he touched me and gently kiss me, he loves me that much.

I had a lot of doubts and fears about our relationship but he made it disappear with just a simple kiss. A kiss that assures me that yes I am his girl.

I like everything about him, every little things he does it made me swept off my feet. When I was a little girl, I’d always tell myself I like someone to sweep me off my feet. I reached my 26 years of my life, and honestly, this is the first time I was totally swept off.

His attitude makes his stand out to the rest of the guy. A lot of guys would promise you moon and stars, heaven and the likes but we all know that it isn’t true. He promised not to hurt me but he also explained along the way, he might hurt me unintentionally. I know that. And I accepted that.

I knew I made the right decision, I made it finally. Made a decision that would make me smile and would make me happy.

I know along the way, we might hurt each other but that doesn’t stop us from loving each other. This will just make us more closer and understand us more.

I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you, the moment I kiss you and the moment you held my hand.

I love you so much baby!

My angel

Oh well what can I say, he came along unexpectedly. Caught my attention unintentionally. Everything was unplanned. Although as he claims he fell in love for me since the first time I posted. Hell yeah, the post was funny though. I intend to just get the guy’s reaction about it but because of that, I caught his attention. He said, how naive I am.

I was smiling everytime we exchange messages. He was there when I was really down, gave me support and care for me. An angel that I never expect I would meet.

He isn’t perfect, he got flaws too. But beyond those flaws, I learned to love him beyond those imperfections. I think this what we call “true love”.

He was stunned when he knew that I fell for him eventhough I know all his dirtiest secret. We started as friends, supported each other as friends. But we ended up being lovers. I think, relationships based from friendship is the best.

We never hide anything from each other. We never wanted to hurt each other but we both know along the way, we might hurt one another ‘unintentionally’.

He brought new meaning in me. He made me realize that it is still worth believing that somebody is really meant for me. And that is him.

He made me believe to myself. And even inspire me to be a better person. I became conscious on how I look, he might be waiting for me as a surprise. And in return, I always want to look good. Before, I just really don’t care what other people might say how I look. Now I believe that I am pretty because I got him.

He definitely changed the way I look at my life now. He made me realize how great I am and how much he loves me. 🙂

Perfect Love

It’s been a long time since I last wrote about personal happenings in my life. I have been racking my brains out to find an inspiration on what to write. Of course I am tired of writing heartaches, pains and sadness in my blog ALTHOUGH, I know I am good at it. Maybe it has something to do with my past experiences. Gosh, am I making it sound like nothing happened to me except sadness. Lemme re-phrase that, With all the “challenging” experiences I have gone through, I think it is about time I write something about on something about my angel.

In my last blog, I wrote something about an angel who came to me unexpectedly. A friend that always supports me and love me despite my flaws. All this time, I thought it was platonic love.. Yeah because he isn’t scared to share all his dirtiest secret to me, which makes us more closer. See, he never thought all this time, it was perfectly fine with me. Nobody is perfect that what I said. And now he is here, offering me a perfect love. Well I know some of you will disagree but each one of us has their own definition of what is a perfect love. For me what he is trying to give me is a perfect one.

I saw this poster, and for me it is a perfect definition of love. He isn’t afraid of accepting my dark past and that is perfect love. He show me how to still love another person with everything he have and can without thinking of himself, unselfish love that is.

He taught me to let go of the pain, sadness and heartaches. He taught me to believe in myself despite all those things, and yes he is right, it made me who I am now. Without those experiences, I won’t be a strong person. He promised me to teach more to become a stronger one. Which I think he will fulfill in time.

But right now, what matters is having him around. Supporting and loving me all the way. Knowing that I have that person, I know I will be alright.

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