Goin’ stronger

Last week has been a very nice and peaceful week for us. Although last week, my love is quite restless because of his problems. I understand how he feels, a lot of people depends on him. He has to be strong. I realized that our relationship is getting stronger and makes us more closer to each other.

I was surprised when he told me last Tue, “You know I got a song for you?”. And I asked, “What is it?”.. So he let me listen to this song..

Who would have thought a guy like him would dedicate such cute and romantic song for a girl. While he was singing at the top of his voice with matching dance choreography, I felt so loved and appreciated. No one has ever made me feel like this. I asked him if the entire lyrics is dedicated to me, oh well some of us just dedicate certain part of a song aight? But he said, “yes, my baby love. The entire song is how I feel and you make me feel”.  Below is the lyrics of this song.. It really made me calm whenever I feel like bursting. After listening to this song, I listen to this song everyday to start my day right..

(Nicole)
I remember like it was yesterday
first kiss and I knew you changed the game
you had me, exactly, where you wanted
and i’m on it, and I aint ever gon let you get away
holding hands never made me feel this way
so special, boy its your..
your smile, we so in Love (lalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in Love (Lalalalalaaa)
and I just can’t get enough of your
lalala Lovee
yeeah we so in love LOVE
I want you to know…

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

In a minute now we’re still holding it down
butterflies everytime he come around
you make me, so crazy, its crazy, ohh baby
I don’t ever wanna be with no one else
you’re the only one that ever made me mad
you’re special, boy it’s your, your style
we so in Love (lalalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in love Lalalalalalaa
and I just can’t get enough
of your lalala Love
yeah thats all i’m thinking of
LOVE, I want you to know

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up

ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

(Guy)
You always and forever you my sunshine
on my mind constant
think about you all the time (you’re my everything)

(Nicole)
Everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

(Guy)
you ma new school (love)
you ma old school (love)
and it’s true you’re the one i’m thinking of

(Nicole)
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up ( you make the sun come up on a cloudy day)
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everything

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

you are my baby baby baby babe love

everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh

you’re my everything
you are my baby baby baby baby love

And then Saturday came, I was like texting him and I felt he was cold. But to my surprise, he called me and I was shocked that he introduced me to his bestfriend. And I was speechless to know what he was telling to his friends about me. His bestfriend told me that my love told him that I am smart, caring, thoughtful, loving and someone he can talk in straight English. The last part really made me laugh. And his bestfriend asked me if I can introduce him to someone like me, because he also wants to get what my boyfriend is experiencing now. And my boyfriend said ” Sorry, she is mine and nobody can be like her”. It made me smile and realized that he is really proud of me.

Maybe in the last past few weeks, I was afraid to trust him. Not that I don’t love him, but I have been hurt a lot of times before. And when I realized just how much proud he is of me, I told myself, enough of my doubts and fears. I should learn to trust him that no matter what happens, he will always be my love. We are destined for each other. We both came in our lives, just right in time. In time we both need someone to love, hang on and share our burdens. This makes us more closer and appreciate each other more. We are not perfect, but we know that despite our flaws, we can see a perfect person for us. Because they made us better person. We both feel that we are willing to spend the rest of our lives with each other. Just like what he said and the song goes, I make the sun goes up and I am everything he dream of, I am his everything.

There is only one rule in love. And that is to make you love happy

I love you so much baby. I want you to be the father my baby. I am excited and happy as we both enjoy our journey called life. You’re my everything baby love.

Bob Ong’s quote

PAG-IBIG (LOVE)

“Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..” (If you don’t love a person, don’t give a motive for him/her to love you)

“Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.” (Everybody gets serious if they are truly in love. However, not everybody is strong in temptations)

“Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.” (Use your heary to take care those people you care about. Use your head to take care of yourself)

“Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.” (Don’t let go of something you don’t want to use holding by other people).

“Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.” (Don’t hold something that you know you will just let go)

“Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.” (Don’t hold on to something if you know you’re already holding one)

“Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”( It is just like an elevator. Why push yourself if there’s no place for you. There is a stair, you just ignore it.)

“Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”(If you will just wait for someone to flirt with you, nothing will happen to your life.You should also flirt)

“Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.” (If you like someone and he/she does’t like you, let it be. Who knows in the next day, you don’t like him/her also,it so happens, he/she felt it first)

“Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”(Leave him/her if you’re not happy anymore.There is no cure for stupid only initiative)

“Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”(If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t complain. Because there are also people that you don’t love but they love you. So it’s even.)

“Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila? (Why do children don’t want to take a nap in the afternoon?Do they know if they learn to love, they cannot sleep even if they want to)

“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.” (Not sadness or fear is the difficult part of being alone. It is the acceptance that out of billions of people in the world, there is nobody who even tried to fight just to be with you)

“Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!” (If you love somebody that doesn’t deserve you and you got hurt, don’t blame your heart. Your heart is only beating to supply blood to your body. Now if you’re good at anatomy and blame your hypothalamus that controls your emotions, you’re wrong again. Why?For Christ sake, don’t blame all of your body organs for your pains in your life. Remember this, you will only be happy, if you learn that not your heart,brain,liver or intestines has nothing to do with all the things that happens in your life because IT IS YOURSELF!)

PAG-AARAL (STUDIES)

“Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!).”(Study hard.Because if you will stop, you will regret when you get old that you never experienced the joy brought by no classes or suspension of classes or teachers being absent)

“Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba’t-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan…” (You learned that there are free lectures in the world, and it is you who will make the syllabus. There are a lot of teachers outside school, it is your decision who you will choose to teach you. All of us are enrolled now in a university, there are a lot of free subjects that are difficult, but because it is free, it is your lost if you drop.One by one we will graduate, in different ways. Our only diploma are the memories of whatever help or love that we left in this world that we once tried to change)

“Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa.”(Encourage everybody to have at least one favorite book in their life. Because there will be more wretched than those people who are literate but doesn’t read)

“dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung ‘di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang ‘yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela.” (You will only study for two decades. If you will not persevere, five decade of poverty will substitute.If the youth only knows about this, I believe no one will avoid school)

BUHAY (IN GENERAL) (LIFE)

“nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.” ( I’ve learned that final exam isn’t the passing rate of life. It is not multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks that is being answered but and essay that we write everyday. It will be judged not based whether we have right or wrong answer but based on the value of what we write. Erasures are allowed)

“Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.” (You can eat a siopao with a pad of cat or walk in broken glasses without foot cover but never ever try drugs. If you cannot avoid it, seek help of your parents. Because they know cheaper supplier and they will never cheat on you)

“Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.” (Dream and strive to achieve it. Don’t blame your broken family, your useless boyfriend/girlfriend, crippled puppy or flying cockroaches. If your family has shortcomings to you,you can blame and rebel. Stop studying, marry someone, do drugs, dye your armpit hair. In the end, you will be the victim. A rebel that doesn’t prove anything and has good reason to yourself)

“Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa’yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?” (Achieve your dream. It is your obligation to yourself.If you want to eat tons of soil so you will be included in the Guiness book of record so our country will be proud of you, go ahead.Who the hell are they.Ignore whatever the people will say to stop you. If the scientists before didn’t strive, we are not living in Jupiter now. But we are not living in Jupiter now because the scientists before didn’t strive harder. Do you see the moral lesson?)

“Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras.” (I learned that as we grow, you will stumble a lot of times. Whether you get up or not, life will continue, the earth will still revolve and time will be exhausted)

HALO-HALO (ANYTHING)

“Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka.” (Don’t rush in marriage. Three, five or ten years from now, your standard will change and you will realize that it is not right to choose a partner just because she sounded like Debbie Gibson or can do break dancing. It is true that character is still more important. As the time passes, even your school heartrobs will look like bread. Believe me)

“ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko.” ( I don’t want to get used of the things that I will lose eventually)

“hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?” ( Are you look for me or my absence?)

“hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. ” (Not because you cannot understand something, it is already a lie. And not all you can understand is truth)

“Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa’yo – ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e gumagana ang utak ng tao.” (They said that in any problem,  there is only one person who can help you- IT IS YOURSELF. They are right. I surrendered myself. Maybe that is why God gave conscience, because he knows not all the time our brains are functioning.)

“Obligasyon kong maglayag, karapatan kong pumunta sa kung saan ko gusto, responsibilidad ko ang buhay ko.” (It’s my obligation to sail, it is my right to go to anywhere I want to go, my life is my responsibility)

“Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko.” (I am a bad person, like you, in the same way that you’re a good person like me)

“Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala.” (It is better to fail in doing something that win in doing nothing)

“iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala.” (Doing nothing is different from not doing anything)

“iba ang informal gramar sa mali !!!” (Informal grammar is different from wrong grammar)

” Para san ba ang cellphone na may camera? Kung kailangan sa buhay un, dapat matagal na kong patay.” (What is the use of phones with camera? If it is really needed in life, I am already dead a long time ago)

Forget about me

Holdin’ on…

I am surprised to how long I can hold on to someone I love now. I used to be someone who can easily let go and just move on, without looking behind. But now, with what’s going on in our relationship, I am quite surprised on how much patience I am giving just to hold on and to fight for this relationship. I never knew I have that capability. I thought I am just someone who can easily move on and let go after someone said goodbye. But with him, I don’t expect I can hold on this longer despite all the pains and heartaches I am going through.

I think that is part of loving, the pain. Did I try to forget that pain is a package when you’re loving? Yes, I did. But I realized its inevitable. It will always be there. Sometimes, too much loving can also cause pain and sometimes we cannot avoid that.. And we are doing it ‘unconsciously’.

I don’t know I can love someone like him. I don’t expect I can even give this kind of love to someone. That I am capable of giving love and continue loving that person despite the heartaches he is giving me. Maybe this is what I call true love. Not trying to be masochist, it’s reality. I never felt this love so strong.

But I am no saint. I may have tantrums sometimes, which I think is just normal. I am not perfect. I may cry a lot because that’s the only way I can release the pains I feel inside. But till then, I pray that someday, everything will fall into the right place. “God thy will be done..”

Future together

Last night while love was here, I was surprised that he knew how to read palm. And on his reading, he mentioned that I will end up with the second guy I love. I’m starting to wonder, I didn’t tell him anything about my exes and my past relationships with him. Because he believes that whatever in past should remain in the past so we don’t dwell too much in talking about my ex boyfriends. I don’t think he does even know how many boyfriends I had before.

Too my surprise he said, I will end up with the second guy I have love. And I was like, “Oh my, there’s two of them I genuinely love”. Honestly, there’s only two of them I really cried and felt the fear of losing them. I just realized that what I felt with my ex isn’t really “love”. I mean, I love them but the whole of them. Maybe I was just in love with the idea that I love them but I don’t really feel it in my heart. Now that explains why I never felt so lonely nor hurt when we broke up. I thought before, I just really don’t know how to cry and when that reading happened last night, I was stunned and surprised.

I don’t regret ending up with him. I must say that he is the best guy I ever with. We have our own ups and downs but it doesn’t stop us from loving one another. Our fights and arguments are just merely way of telling one another that we are already hurting but that doesn’t mean we will give up on our relationship.

We were happy with what happened last night. Funny for other people it may seems but for us it means a lot. That even our palms says we will end up together. Btw, he was kinda sad when he said I will end up with the second guy I loved. And that’s the time I told him, “I never told you this before but there’s only two of you that I really cried and beg not to leave me. You’re the second guy I cried and beg not to leave me”. His face lit up and hug me. And he said, ” I am happy to be with you”.. Awww so sweet…

Now I think time to be more relaxed. I love him and he loves me. There’s nothing I want more. Just to be with him is enough for me to go on and live a full and contented life.

I love you my sexy love… muuah

Baby I love you (Never be replaced)

Baby I love you and I’ll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I’ll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I’ll be with you as long as you want me to
Until (until) the end (the end) of time

From the day I met you I knew we’d be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you, and I wanna have your kids
It can never compare to the feeling of your kisses

I can say I’m truly happy to this day
You`ve made me thank God that I live my life everyday
There’s never been a doubt, in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there’s something I should probably let you know
Enjoy everyday, that I spend with you
And I will miss you cause I’m happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I’ll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promised you that you will never be replaced

Baby I love you and I’ll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promised you that you will never be replaced

You will never be replaced

I feel for you, boy, yes i do
I`ll be with you as long as you want me to
Until, the end, of time

I’m sorry


I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you sick
Sorry I hurt you so deep

I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for each and every fight
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

I’m sorry my friend I made you mad
I’m sorry darling you are so sad
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?

Love and Hurt

Most of us dreams of happy endings. A fairy tale love story wherein the main characters live happily ever after. That is what those fairytale stories instill in our mind when we were kids.

I remember when I was a kid, I would always dream of having my own prince charming, a cute daughter and a happy family. I am addicted to fairytale stories, I am a sucker in happy endings. But growing up, I realized, life isn’t a fairytale, so as in love. Love in reality isn’t close to what I used to imagine reading my favorite fairytales.

As I mature, I realized that when loving someone, you will always get hurt. No matter how hard we try to avoid hurting the ones we love. Sometimes we hurt them without noticing it. The more we try to avoid them, the more we end up hurting them. I always believe in trying to keep things to myself which might hurt the relationship. And i was then successful not telling them what i feel. But right now, I realized, I should learn to speak up, tell them how I feel. Be it good or bad, I need to be transparent.

I remember the song of Tiffany, it says there It’s the lover not the love who broke your heart last night. It’s the lover not the dream that didn’t work out right. If you listen to your heart, ooh you’ll know it’s true
It’s the lover not the love who deserted you”

Well in loving someone, if we lose them, it is not love who left us or didn’t work out, it is indeed our partner who deserted us. Sometimes we cry so hard, we became so depressed that we forget that there is still tomorrow to hope for. If they leave us, it not us who lost something, we should always remember that it is their loss. If they leave us, we should not let it get into us too much. Crying is normal, but the following that, we should remember that we need to move on and face the fact that they are no longer with us. Leaving doesn’t make us less a person but rather just make us a better person after learning something from not so good experience. One thing I have learned in life, is that wisdom doesn’t always have to be sugar coated but sometimes it came like a bitter pill. Something we cannot swallow. But this bitter pills are way better that those sugar coated medicines we take to ease the pain we feel.

People leave us because in the first place, they were never meant to be with us. Like in those movies, their role has ended already. But we should not regret having them as a part in our life. They made us who we are. Thank God for He let us meet them to mold us into a better person.

Cold weather

Hmm the weather right now, since we got a storm. Just makes me wonder why it always rains when we are together. Is it a sign or a blessing? I just wonder…

Last night, as I watched you having good time with my bro, I wonder, is it a sign that you are indeed my soulmate. I don’t believe in soulmate in the first place, I think it’s very idealistic. But with you, I just knew, you’re everything I have been hoping to be with. Someone that makes me complete.

I really cannot find the right words to say on how much I love you. I guess with the things I am doing for you, it is enough for you to know and feel it right.

My only wish is that we will last forever, funny as it is when you said ” I will love you even if you look like raisins. And you’re stuck with me”…. 🙂

I love you baby and thanks for loving me and also my family.

The new me

Grandfather’s letter


One day, a young man was cleaning out his late grandfather’s belongings when he came across a bright red envelope. Written on the front were the words, “To my grandson.” Recognizing his grandfather’s handwriting, the boy opened the envelope. A letter inside read:

Dear Ronny,

Years ago you came to me for help. You said, “Grandpa, how is it that you’ve accomplished so much in your life? You’re still full of energy, and I’m already tired of struggling. How can I get that same enthusiasm that you’ve got?”

I didn’t know what to say to you then. But knowing my days are numbered, I figure that I owe you an answer. So here is what I believe.

I think a lot of it has to do with how a person looks at things. I call it ‘keeping your eyes wide open.’

First, realize that life is filled with surprises, but many are good ones. If you don’t keep watching for them, you’ll miss half the excitement. Expect to be thrilled once in a while, and you will be.

When you meet up with challenges, welcome them. They’ll leave you wiser, stronger, and more capable than you were the day before. When you make a mistake, be grateful for the things it taught you. Resolve to use that lesson to help you reach your goals.

And always follow the rules. Even the little ones. When you follow the rules, life works. If you think you ever really get by with breaking the rules, you’re only fooling yourself.

It’s also important to decide exactly what you want. Then keep your mind focused on it, and be prepared to receive it.

But be ready to end up in some new places too. As you grow with the years, you’ll be given bigger shoes to fill. So be ready for endings as well as challenging beginnings.

Sometimes we have to be brave enough to move from the familiar to the unfamiliar. Life isn’t just reaching peaks. Part of it is moving from one peak to the next. If you rest too long in between, you might be tempted to quit. Leave the past in the past. Climb the next mountain and enjoy the view.

Dump things that weigh you down emotionally and spiritually. When an old resentment, belief, or attitude becomes heavy, lighten your load. Shed those hurtful attitudes that slow you down and drain your energy.

Remember that your choices will create your successes and your failures. So consider all the pathways ahead, and decide which ones to follow. Then believe in yourself, get up, and get going.

And be sure to take breaks once in a while. They’ll give you a renewed commitment to your dreams and a cheerful, healthy perception of the things that matter the most to you.

Most important of all, never give up on yourself. The person that ends up a winner is the one who resolves to win. Give life everything you’ve got, and life will give its best back to you.

Love always,
Grandpa

by Steve Brunkhorst

Chinese Proverbs

  • A diamond with a flaw is worth more than a pebble without imperfections.
  • I was angered, for I had no shoes. Then I met a man who had no feet.
  • He who asks is a fool for five minutes, but he who does not ask remains a fool forever.
  • Blessings do not come in pairs;misfortunes never come singly.
  • Give a man a fish, and you feed him a day. Teach a man to fish,and you feed him for a lifetime.
  • It is not the knowing that is difficult, but the doing.
  • A bad word whispered will echo a hundred miles.
  • The wise adapt themselves to circumstances, as water moulds itself to the pitcher.
  • The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials.
  • “Tell me and I’ll forget; show me and I may remember; involve me and I’ll understand.”
  • “To forget one’s ancestor’s is to be a brook without a source, a tree without root”
  • “Make happy those who are near, and those who are far will come”
  • “Outside noisy, inside empty”
  • “To talk much and arrive nowhere is the same as climbing a tree to catch a fish”
  • “If you don’t want anyone to know it, don’t do it”
  • “A man should choose a friend who is better than himself. There are plenty of acquaintances in the world; but very few real friends.”
  • “Be not disturbed at being misunderstood; be disturbed rather at not being understanding”

Flower in the desert

This happened many many summers ago.

There was a young flower in the desert where all was dry and sad looking…It was growing by itself…enjoying every day…and saying to the sun “When shall I be grown up”? And the sun would say “Be patient”—Each time I touch you,you grow a little”…And she was so pleased.Because she would have a chance to bring beauty to this corner of sand…And this is all she wanted to do—bring a little bit of beauty to this world.

One day the hunter came by—and stepped on her.—She was going to die—and she felt so sad.Not because she was dying —but because she would not have a chance to bring a little bit of beauty to this corner of the desert.

The great spirit saw her, and was listening.—Indeed,he said …She should be living…And he reached down and touched her—and gave her life.

And she grew up to be a beautiful flower…and this corner of the desert became so beautiful because of her.

Happy birthday to me?

My birthday last night didn’t started out the way I wanted it though. In morning, I was in the hotel with my boss to finish our assessment for our client. In the afternoon, I was rushing to the mall to buy some boxers for love. However, I didn’t know that my birthday will start with tears and a small confrontation.

Love and I was exchanging text messages and thought we are just playing around the usual thing we do. I was just surprise to find out, he took one of my messages seriously. Arrgghh, damn, I was crying like hell because he wouldn’t want to be with me last night.

So I was drank to cover up the pain I feel inside. But he finally said he will be coming over to see me. I don’t know but with happened last night, something tells me, I should be back with my old self. Building walls to let no one hurt me.

I had worst experiences that I could ever imagine, most of them were abusive. This is one is quite different that made me decide that I should let him get that close to me and trust him like I never did before. I remember this quote that was sent to me once “Love like you were never hurt before:… And that’s what I am doing now.

I am just waiting for next year. We are planning to have our baby. Maybe by that time, I will no longer be hurt like this. I’ve got my baby… I know some of you will tell me, “Oh baby isn’t the answer”, but for me, that is the best thing I could do.

So this journey continues. I shall write more with my journey with him, what do you think?

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

Wake up call

by Catherine Pulsifer

The story below is a true story that happened in September.

During the month of September, a dear friend of mine lost her husband suddenly in an accident. The tragedy was a shock to everyone.

This accident was sudden and certainly unexpected. It drove home the realization that you just don’t know when a loved one is no longer going to be with you. We sometimes take our love ones for granted, and we expect that they will be with us forever. However, as we all know, life does not work that way and sometimes we get a wake up call that shocks us and makes us stand back and realize how short life is.

In consoling her, I tried to imagine if I was in her shoes how would I feel. It was impossible to imagine what she was going through. What words do I say to help her?

Sometimes words just can not express our feelings. Sometimes our actions are much more meaningful than words. A hug can sometimes express more than our words will ever express. Sometimes, just being there to listen is more meaningful and helpful to people.

A SECOND WAKE UP CALL,

As I was leaving the funeral parlor, I ran into a Marilyn. (Marilyn has been a true friend to me over the years. She is one of those friends who is with you in the good times and is always by your side in the bad times. She has a sense of humor that makes everyone laugh and she makes everyone feel at ease.) We chit chatted for a few moments, and then she asked me how my job was. So I started talking and talking and talking (am sure she wished she had never asked, ha) I was having a stressful week with my job and I was telling her all the issues and how I was feeling. She listened to me as I was raving about my frustrations, then without saying a word, she took her hands and placed them on my face, and said to me,
“But at least you had a day.”

The touch of her hands on my cheeks, the calmness in her voice, and the words she spoke,
“BUT AT LEAST YOU HAD A DAY”,
hit me like a ton of bricks. All the frustrations, all the stress that was building up inside of me – came to a complete stop.

Since that day, when I start feeling stressed, I remind myself of Marilyn’s words – but at least I had a day! Things could be a lot worse, the stress of the situation always could be worse, but I am alive and I have a lot to be thankful for – so I shall not waste my days with stress and frustrations – Life is too short!

Parent’s Wish

Parent\’s WishSa Aking Pagtanda…

Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensyahan. Kapag dala ng
kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa
hapag kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan. Maramdamin ang isang
matanda. Nagse-self-pity ako a tuwing sisigawan mo ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo,
huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng “binge!” paki-ulit nalang ang
sinabi mo o pakisulat nalang. Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga
ako.

Kapag mahina na tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo,
katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit
ulit na parang sirang plaka. Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako.

Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan. Natatandaan
mo anak noong bata ka pa? kapag gusto mo ng lobo,paulit-ulit mo ‘yong
sasabihin, maghapon kang mangungulit hangga’t hindi mo nakukuha ang
gusto mo. Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.

Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy matanda, amoy lupa.
Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo. Mahina na ang katawan ko. Madaling
magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan
mo noong bata ka pa? Pinatyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag
ayaw mong maligo.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako’y masungit, dala na marahil ito
ng katandaan. Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.

Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkwentohan naman tayo, kahit sandali
lang. inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong
busy ka sa trabaho, subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na
akong makakwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga
kwento ko. Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtyagaan kong
pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento tungkol sa iyong
teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako’y magkakasakit at maratay sa banig
ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan.

Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan,
pagtyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay.
Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.

Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking
kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.

At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha,
ibubulong ko sa kanya na pag-palain ka sana dahil naging mapagmahal ka
sa iyong ama’t ina.

Busy Bee

Oh well next week till the 17th of this month will be a busy time for me. I will have a project and will be at the client site.

I may not be able to post a blog for the rest of this duration. 😦 I will miss my blog. For those who reads my blog, I will appreciate if you can also read my earlier blogs. 🙂 Hmm, I think you will find interesting posts there too.

See yah guys.. 🙂

Ciao!

Wonderful night

I had a wonderful night yesterday. As you know, I will be with my sexy love. So we were chatting that yesterday afternoon and told him I have to go ahead since I have to prepare our dinner. But he insisted of picking me up instead since he miss me a lot. We haven’t seen each other for a week and he was so excited to see me. So he picked me up from work and as we drove home, he can’t help but hold me my hands and keep on kissing it. I find it sweet. And it was a lovely feeling to be honest. On our way home, I can’t help but stare at him. I told myself, how lucky I am to be with this guy. He told me how much he loves, I think he never failed to say to me. One thing that made me smile was his effort to buy me this special shaped chocolates. He said, he finds it cute so he thinks, it will be cute as well for me… Hmm, he can read my mind.

When we arrived home, I immediately spent my time preparing our dinner. I cooked beef afritada. So while cooking, I know I am in love because I can’t help but smile. I know that there will be problems we will encounter in the future but, that won’t stop us from loving one another. I know sometimes I get jealous oh well I think that is normal right? But last night, I had this assurance that he truly loves me and that I should trust him. I mean I trust him but I don’t trust those girls around him 😀

I love you baby and I am glad you’re mine 🙂

I finally found someone

Oh well, a lot of people said this line. In fact this line is considered ‘overused’. But hey the line in this song, I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet. I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete. I am with this great guy that makes my whole world complete. I know sounds cheesy but hey that’s the fact. I never thought I would never find someone like him. Someone who will do anything just to be with me.

One thing I have learned from loving this guy is that, never expect anything in return when you love someone. And always tell them how important they are to you. This will boost their morale and also will love you even more.

I am no expert when it comes to love. I failed a lot of times, but with those failures, I became who I am now. He would always tells me that “It gets worst before getting better”. Well true. I have been into a lot of shitty relationships, pasts where I thought I would never make it. But hey after all those heartaches, pains and sorrows, I found him.

God knows what you really need in order to succeed. He will never give you something without you learning something. After tough times I have been through, He gave something worth keeping for a lifetime. A gift more precious than anything else in this world.

I love everything about him. His flaws are included too. I think that is true love huh? When you can still love that person beyond those imperfection. Oh well no one is perfect and he even said, he think he is bad for me but he will try his best to be good. For me not to regret choosing to be with him.

I am just so lucky, lucky enough to be with someone who can love me back the way I love him. Well, I think more than I do. He do everything just to make me feel love and cared for. I feel his support in everything I do and I know he is always proud of my achievements, big or small, he is still proud of me. Oh, how I love this guy.

But I know there would be times that we might hurt each other. But I think that is part of a relationship. But I know we will never hurt one another ‘intentionally’. But it will draw us together closer. In our hearts, mind and soul, we are married to one another. 🙂 And I think that’s what’s important.

Till then!

Quotes about Choice

  • You are the person who has to decide. Whether you’ll do it or toss it aside; You are the person who makes up your mind. Whether you’ll lead or will linger behind. Whether you’ll try for the goal that’s afar. Or just be contented to stay where you are.” ~Edgar A. Guest~
  • “You are everything that is, your thoughts, your life, your dreams come true. You are everything you choose to be. You are as unlimited as the endless universe.” ~Shad Helmstetter~
  • “You are now at a crossroads. This is your opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make. Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really are now? Don’t think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully.” ~Anthony Robbins~
  • “You can do what you want to do. You can be what you want to be.” ~David Thomas~
  • “When making your choice in life, do not neglect to live.” ~Dr. Samuel Johnson~
  • “It is by chance we met by choice we became friends.” ~Unknown~
  • “Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.” ~William Jenning Bryan~
  • “The strongest principle of growth lies in human choice.” ~George Eliot~
  • “It’s choice – not chance – that determines your destiny.” ~Jean Nidetch~
  • “If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise.”
  • ~Robert Fritz~
  • “Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” ~Dr. Wayne Dyer~
  • “Every choice you make has an end result.” ~Zig Ziglar~
  • “Live your dream by making deliberate choices, not just responding to whatever life throws your way.” ~Marcia Wieder~
  • “You and I are essentially infinite choice-makers. In every moment of our existence, we are in that field of all possibilities where we have access to an infinity of choices.” ~Deepak Chopra~
  • “Our lives are a sum total of the choices we have made.” ~Dr. Wayne Dyer~
  • “Look for your choices, pick the best one, then go with it.” ~Pat Riley~

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