The Hospital Window

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room’s only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn’t hear the band – he could see it. In his mind’s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.

It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, “Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.”

Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can’t buy.

Today is a gift, that’s why it is called the present.

Quotes about Choice

  • You are the person who has to decide. Whether you’ll do it or toss it aside; You are the person who makes up your mind. Whether you’ll lead or will linger behind. Whether you’ll try for the goal that’s afar. Or just be contented to stay where you are.” ~Edgar A. Guest~
  • “You are everything that is, your thoughts, your life, your dreams come true. You are everything you choose to be. You are as unlimited as the endless universe.” ~Shad Helmstetter~
  • “You are now at a crossroads. This is your opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make. Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really are now? Don’t think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully.” ~Anthony Robbins~
  • “You can do what you want to do. You can be what you want to be.” ~David Thomas~
  • “When making your choice in life, do not neglect to live.” ~Dr. Samuel Johnson~
  • “It is by chance we met by choice we became friends.” ~Unknown~
  • “Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.” ~William Jenning Bryan~
  • “The strongest principle of growth lies in human choice.” ~George Eliot~
  • “It’s choice – not chance – that determines your destiny.” ~Jean Nidetch~
  • “If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is a compromise.”
  • ~Robert Fritz~
  • “Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” ~Dr. Wayne Dyer~
  • “Every choice you make has an end result.” ~Zig Ziglar~
  • “Live your dream by making deliberate choices, not just responding to whatever life throws your way.” ~Marcia Wieder~
  • “You and I are essentially infinite choice-makers. In every moment of our existence, we are in that field of all possibilities where we have access to an infinity of choices.” ~Deepak Chopra~
  • “Our lives are a sum total of the choices we have made.” ~Dr. Wayne Dyer~
  • “Look for your choices, pick the best one, then go with it.” ~Pat Riley~

Special day

My computer clock says 12:05, 5 minutes ago, it is our monthsary. How time flies if you’re in love. The feeling is so strong and it made me forget the rest.  It brings back smile to me how we end up together. It all started with a joke. 🙂

That day, I really wanted erase him from my contact list (both cellphone and chikka). Why? I know all his dark secrets that I think if another girl would be listening, would be a huge turn off for them. But it happened differently in my case. I fell for this great guy.

He admits being playboy, loves to love girls. As he always says, he has a lot of love to give. But I still wonder until now, why I do love him this much. The foundation of our relationship are friendship and trust.

So when the 24th came, I was already decided to erase him from my contact list if he won’t even feel that I do like him. Yes, I am willing to take the risk to be with him. So when I texted him, he replied to me, asking me how I was and the likes. Till we end up talking about the guy whom he is suppose to set me up. Then I blurted out, “Hay hirap talaga magkahowe.” (*sigh*, it is hard to find a boyfriend), then he replied to me, “Can I be your howe?”. Surprised but smiling, that’s what I felt. And I asked him, “Are you serious?”, then he said “Yes”.

So there we end up being together. Then he admitted, he fell in love with me long time ago. But didn’t bother to pursue it because with all the things he had told me, there would be no reason for me to love him. But he was surprised to find out, I fell in love with him despite those.

One by one, he dropped all his girls and told me, he never felt this kind of love for the longest time. Most of the girls he was with are nothing serious and the other one is just because he feel pity for that girl that is why he can’t leave her. The last time he felt this kind of love was when he was in college, with his first love. I was blushing and smiling. I know he was telling me the truth. During the time when we were friends, he never lied to me. And that’s what we promised to each other, to never lie. Tell the truth even if it hurts.

And now, we reached our monthsary. I can’t help but smile. I am so happy to have a wonderful man with me. Someone who loves me and cares for me. Someone who completes me.

Ice Cream

Last week I took my children to a restaurant. My six-year-old son asked if he could say grace.

As we bowed our heads he said, “God is good. God is great. Thank you for the food, and I would even thank you more if Mom gets us ice cream for dessert. And Liberty and justice for all! Amen!”

Along with the laughter from the other customers nearby I heard a woman remark, “That’s what’s wrong with this country. Kids today don’t even know how to pray. Asking God for ice-cream! Why, I never!”

Hearing this, my son burst into tears and asked me, “Did I do it wrong? Is God mad at me?”

As I held him and assured him that he had done a terrific job and God was certainly not mad at him, an elderly gentleman approached the table. He winked at my son and said,
“I happen to know that God thought that was a great prayer.”
“Really?” my son asked.
“Cross my heart,” the man replied.

Then in a theatrical whisper he added (indicating the woman whose remark had started this whole thing), “Too bad she never asks God for ice cream. A little ice cream is good for the soul sometimes.”

Naturally, I bought my kids ice cream at the end of the meal. My son stared at his for a moment and then did something I will remember the rest of my life.

He picked up his sundae and without a word, walked over and placed it in front of the woman. With a big smile he told her,

“Here, this is for you.Ice cream is good for the soul sometimes; and my soul is good already.”

Love handles

I got this comment from a friend blogger on how he wanted his love handles to disappear. I think the website that I found really helps me a lot to focus more on how much food intake I eat and what causes me to eat more. This helps me understands that some factors around me affects the way I eat. And now my friend Kenny made this comment from my previous blog about 8 tricky reasons why we eat more. To answer his comment on how to lose his “LOVE HANDLES”, I think this article might help him too…

Question :

Please tell me what exercise to do to get rid of those love handles on my hips and sides of my stomach that hang over the sides of my jeans. You ladies know where I’m talking about.

Answer :

Sorry, but you can’t magically make those “love handles” disappear. The belief that you can somehow spot reduce (selectively zap fat from an offending area of your body) is a persistent misconception among exercisers. If only you COULD spot reduce! Then doing thousands of sit-ups would melt away your spare tire. But as many have found out the hard way, this approach simply won’t work. Specific exercises will not result in loss of body fat from specific areas. Period.

“Problem areas” are just genetically determined places on an individual’s body where excess fat tends to be stored. The only way to lose fat deposited on any area of the body is to reduce the overall level of fat storage. Sensible eating habits designed to reduce calorie intake and regular exercise designed to burn off excess calories will help reduce overall body-fat stores. Here’s the best, if not the most earth-shattering, approach to getting a handle on those love handles:

Try to maintain a consistent schedule that includes 30-45 minutes of aerobic exercise 3-4 times a week or more. In addition, doing a total-body strength-training routine twice a week will increase your lean body composition, which will help you burn more calories even when you’re at rest. This in turn will further enable you to reduce your overall fat stores, including those love handles, saddlebags, etc. As for diet, eat five or six small, low-fat meals a day to keep your blood sugar steady and your metabolism stoked and to prevent cravings and pig-outs.

You can also improve the overall appearance of your waist by spot TRAINING to tone the muscles underneath the fat deposits. Doing 2-5 abdominal exercises twice a week will adequately train those muscles so they become visible as you lose total body fat. Do 8-15 repetitions per set; move slowly and deliberately so you really feel every rep. Here are a few you might want to try:

  • Basic crunch: Works the rectus abdominis, the wide flat muscle that runs from your breastbone to the top of your pelvis.
    • Lie on the floor with your feet hip-width apart. Cradle your head in your hands without lacing your fingers together and with your elbows rounded slightly inward. Tilt your chin a small way towards your chest and pull your abdominal muscles in.
    • Exhale through your mouth as you curl your head, neck, and shoulders up off the floor. Hold at the top of the movement for a moment, then inhale as you slowly lower down.
  • Twist crunch: This exercise works your rectus abdominis as well as your internal and external obliques, two muscle groups that wrap around your waist.
    • Same as the basic crunch
    • Exhale through your mouth and curl your head, neck, and shoulders up and towards the left. Hold at the top of the movement, then lower to the start. Twist to the right on the next rep, and continue alternating until you complete the set. Note: Don’t just twist your elbows from side to side. Really concentrate on twisting from your middle.
  • Anchoring: This exercise uses all of your abdominal muscles, including the deep, underlying transverse abdominis. Your lower back also gets a workout.
    • Lie on your back with your left foot on the floor. Lift up your right leg and bend your knee so that your thigh is perpendicular to the floor and directly in line with your hip; flex your heel. Raise your arms up over your chest and clasp your fingers together.
    • Slowly lower your heel and your arms towards the floor. As you do so, concentrate on keeping your abs pulled inward, and don’t allow your lower back to pop up off the floor. This becomes harder the closer your heel and hands move towards the floor. When your heel has almost touched the floor, slowly return your arms and leg to the start. Repeat this exercise four times with your right leg, then four times with your left.

But remember: Doing hundreds and hundreds of crunches, sit-ups and so forth will not reduce the fat stored in the abdominal region. You’ll achieve better results by doing the aerobic exercise and a total body, strength-training routine, targeting your middle with strength-training exercises and following the eating tips described above.

8 Sneaky Weight Loss Saboteurs

I read this online and it made me realize that everything there is the reason why I am craving for more food. Like boredom, specially if I am not doing anything here in the office or at home or the likes.

I’ll share it with you and hope this will helps.

By:
Lindsay Dunlap
Why is it that some women feel satisfied on any diet they follow, while you, subscribing to the same plan, remain hungry 24/7? Drinking extra water, eating in small bites and chewing slowly don’t work. You still feel famished all day every day. What gives? It turns out that sneaky hidden sources may be keeping your hunger on overdrive. Follow this checklist to get back on the happy-diet highway.

1. Check your taste buds. One in four people have taste buds with a high tolerance to sugar, so it takes more sugar to satisfy them, say Michael Roizen, MD, and Mehmet Oz, MD, authors of You: On a Diet. The opposite of these “undertasters” are “supertasters,” which includes another 25 percent of us. Supertasters have a hard time enjoying fruits and vegetables because the bitterness is overwhelming. Since most diet plans are heavy on veggies, they can leave people who have this condition strongly dissatisfied. To check your taste buds and see if you fall under either of these categories, mix one packet of Sweet’N Low with two-thirds of a cup of water. If the concoction tastes more sweet than bitter, you’re probably an undertaster. If it tastes more bitter than sweet, you’re probably a supertaster. If it tastes just plain gross, congratulations! You’re a “regular taster,” like the rest of us.

2. Check your sex life. Are you getting enough hanky panky? Lack of sex can make you lust for food. Your appetite for both food and sex are coordinated by your hypothalamus and regulated through a hormone called neuropeptide Y. “Oftentimes an eating problem can be curbed by having regular, monogamous, healthy sex,” say Roizen and Oz. “By satisfying one appetite center, you seem to satisfy the other.”

3. Check your daydreams. According to the law of attraction, what you think about grows larger. Whatever we hold in our mind, our body moves in that direction. If you obsess about the food you’re not supposed to eat — cookies, brownies, candy — you’ll soon be lunging for the vending machine before you can say “cheating.” Just thinking about food can make you salivate, as can the smell of something tasty, a food advertisement or other visions of edible delights. Stay on guard… and hold your nose as you pass Cinnabon at the mall.

4. Check your sensitivity. Do you hate crowds? When surrounded by pessimistic people, do you feel drained and defeated? You may be energy sensitive, meaning you take on the energies of others, and subconsciously want to accumulate fat to act as a buffer from negative vibes, says Judith Orloff, MD, author of Positive Energy. Many of Orloff’s sluggish, overweight clients engage in what she calls “energy-defensive eating,” packing on the pounds to protect themselves from overwhelming vibes. “Early 20th century faith healers were renowned for being grossly obese to avoid absorbing their patients’ symptoms,” she says. Overcoming bad energy is as easy as taking a few deep breaths. “Breathe in vitality,” Orloff advises. “Breathe out fear.”

5. Check your mindset. Celebrations can also cause refrigerator raids. When the good times are rolling, such as on your birthday or a perfect-weather day, you’re 86 percent more likely to seek immediate-gratification foods, like pizza and steak, in order to prolong your good mood, says Brian Wansink, PhD, author of Mindless Eating. Other moods can affect your food desires as well: Boredom is the emotional-face-stuffing runner-up, inspiring you to eat 52 percent more, while depressed or lonely moods will influence you to eat 39 percent more. A simple awareness of your current state of emotions could halt your erratic appetite.

6. Check your friends at the door. Friends are great for support and encouragement while you’re on a diet, but not during mealtimes. Eating with friends may cause you to linger at the table longer, which will make an extra drink or dessert that much harder to forego. You may also pay more attention to the conversation than the food and eat faster. Before you know it, you’ll have shoveled down a plateful of food without being able to remember what it tasted like. Or, worse, you’ll eat too much. The average eater consumes 35 percent more food when eating with one other person than when eating alone, according to Wansink. Dining with four people will lead you to eat 75 percent more. Chow down with seven or more people, and you’ll eat a belt-busting 96 percent more.

7. Check your timetable. Are you eating at regular intervals? Your stomach naturally secretes the hormone ghrelin in pulses every 30 minutes, sending subtle chemical impulses to your brain to eat, say Roizen and Oz. When you’re dieting or going more than six hours without eating, those messages come faster — three times an hour — and become more intense. Ghrelin overrides your willpower and gives you little choice but to stuff your face with Twinkies. Make sure you’re eating every three to four hours. If you’re still hungry, gnaw on some carrots and apples to keep your ghrelin gremlin happy.

8. Check your stress levels. “Extreme stress, as in the case of a car accident, or even exercise, turns off your hunger,” say Roizen and Oz. “Chronic stress, like a long list of looming deadlines or family problems, can make you crave feel-good carbohydrates.” Stress also causes your metabolism to slow down and encourages your body to store fat, particularly around your waistline. Stress can come from unexpected sources, such as eating itself. “Many people have made food their enemy; for them, eating is a stressful experience,” says Mark Hyman, MD, author of Ultrametabolism. “They have to eat, but they worry about getting fat.” Having a backup plan is a surefire way to ease diet stress. If you slip up, just add another 15 minutes of cardio to your workout. Go easy on yourself, and focus on being healthy for life rather than being rail thin in a day.

THE LAST LECTURE – Randy Pausch

FULL LAST LECTURE

Randy Pausch is a married father of three, a very popular professor at Carnegie Mellon University—and he is dying. He is suffering from pancreatic cancer, which he says has returned after surgery, chemotherapy and radiation. Doctors say he has only a few months to live.

In September 2007, Randy gave a final lecture to his students at Carnegie Mellon that has since been downloaded more than a million times on the Internet. “There’s an academic tradition called the ‘Last Lecture.’ Hypothetically, if you knew you were going to die and you had one last lecture, what would you say to your students?” Randy says. “Well, for me, there’s an elephant in the room. And the elephant in the room, for me, it wasn’t hypothetical.”

Watch Randy’s famous “Last Lecture.”

Despite the lecture’s wide popularity, Randy says he really only intended his words for his three small children. “I think it’s great that so many people have benefited from this lecture, but the truth of the matter is that I didn’t really even give it to the 400 people at Carnegie Mellon who came. I only wrote this lecture for three people, and when they’re older, they’ll watch it,” he says.

Doll and White Roses

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back.The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old.The Cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.”Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny,are you sure I don’t have enough money?”The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.”Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.”It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.”I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry.But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.”His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.”My heart nearly stopped.The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.”Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me.””I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.”

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we checkagain, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?””OK” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!”Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!””I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.””My mommy loves white roses.”

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started.I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind.Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a youngwoman and a little girl.The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a criticalstate. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on thelife-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister isstill, to this day, hard to imagine.And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

The value of a man or woman resides in what he or she gives, not in what they are capable of receiving………..

Kiss (Because I am a girl)

One of the video that never failed to make me cry is this Video. The original is in Korean. However I’ll post as well the English version. Then tell me what do you think about… Such lovely story 🙂

Korean Version

English Version

Perfect Love

It’s been a long time since I last wrote about personal happenings in my life. I have been racking my brains out to find an inspiration on what to write. Of course I am tired of writing heartaches, pains and sadness in my blog ALTHOUGH, I know I am good at it. Maybe it has something to do with my past experiences. Gosh, am I making it sound like nothing happened to me except sadness. Lemme re-phrase that, With all the “challenging” experiences I have gone through, I think it is about time I write something about on something about my angel.

In my last blog, I wrote something about an angel who came to me unexpectedly. A friend that always supports me and love me despite my flaws. All this time, I thought it was platonic love.. Yeah because he isn’t scared to share all his dirtiest secret to me, which makes us more closer. See, he never thought all this time, it was perfectly fine with me. Nobody is perfect that what I said. And now he is here, offering me a perfect love. Well I know some of you will disagree but each one of us has their own definition of what is a perfect love. For me what he is trying to give me is a perfect one.

I saw this poster, and for me it is a perfect definition of love. He isn’t afraid of accepting my dark past and that is perfect love. He show me how to still love another person with everything he have and can without thinking of himself, unselfish love that is.

He taught me to let go of the pain, sadness and heartaches. He taught me to believe in myself despite all those things, and yes he is right, it made me who I am now. Without those experiences, I won’t be a strong person. He promised me to teach more to become a stronger one. Which I think he will fulfill in time.

But right now, what matters is having him around. Supporting and loving me all the way. Knowing that I have that person, I know I will be alright.

Realize

V1: Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn’t I, Didn’t I tell you.

But I can’t spell it out for you,
No it’s never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

C: If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we’d be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we’d never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V2: Take time to realize
Oh-oh I’m on your side
didn’t I, didn’t I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn’t I tell you

But I can’t spell it out for you,
no it’s never gonna be that simple
no I can’t spell it out for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we’d be perfect for each other
then we’d never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we’d never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V3: It’s not always the same
no it’s never the same
if you don’t feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: If you just realize what I just realized
then we’d be perfect for each other
then we’d never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we’d never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
realize, realize

I wish Ouchies would realize what I realized that he is my world, my everything. That we are made for each other.

Don’t dream its over

There is freedom within
There is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There’s a battle ahead
Many battles are lost
But you’ll never reach the end of the road
While you’re traveling with me

CHORUS:
Hey now, hey now
Don’t dream it’s over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won’t win

Now I’m towing my car
There’s a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there’s no proof
In the paper today
Tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the TV page

CHORUS

Now I’m walking again
To the beat of a drum
And I’m counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead
Barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

CHORUS

REPEAT UNTIL FADE:
Hey now, hey now
Don’t dream it’s over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in

Reaching out

What must I do to make you understand
You mean everything to me
Don’t have the strength to say
Give this heart of mine a chance
And maybe then you will see…

Refrain:
I’ll do anything, do anything that you tell me
I’ll be there, I’ll be there if you need me.

Chorus:
Reachin’ out to you
Do you feel it too
Lovin’ you is all I wanna do
I’m completely sure
I’ve never felt this way before
When I smile you know that there is something more.

What must I do so I can make you see
The light that shines in my eyes
You brighten up my day
You even help me find my way
I wish you’re always by my side

Refrain:
And I can’t stop, don’t know how to stop thinkin’ of you
And I’ll do anything, do anything to be near you…

Chorus:
Reachin’ out to you
Do you feel it too
Lovin’ you is all I wanna do
I’m completely sure
I’ve never felt this way before
Deep inside you know that there is something more.

Deep inside you know that there is something more.

Holding On

Boys Don’t Cry

I would say I’m sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I’ve said too much
Been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It’s too late
And now there’s nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry

I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it’s no use
That you’ve already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry

My dreamland

Everybody have their own wishes. They say don’t be afraid to dream  because dreaming is free. Well I believe it is absolutely true. Nobody can stop anyone from dreaming. It is where they try to change their reality, a place where nobody can judge them, A world where they are the Star of their own movie. 🙂

When I was a kid, I remember I would dream that I am a supermodel and to be Hollywood actress. Walking in that catwalk and there are flashes of lights, everybody is clapping at me and cheering and on that same crowd, some girls would just simply envy me. This my dream, and in this dream I am the Star. Or dreaming to be walking on that red carpet during OSCAR Award. Paparazzi is everywhere and trying to get my picture and an ambush interview. And sometimes I would dream that I am princess living in a castle. I got everything I need there. I don’t need to worry. Gosh, it is just so nice to dream…

As I mature, my dreams and wishes changes as well. Something more achievable, close to reality. My childhood dream is just way impossible to achieve since I know supermodels are tall and I am not. 😀 But I would like to share to you what are my dreams now…

My ‘own’ house. Everybody I think does want to have their own home. But I would love to have this kind of house. Very cute huh?! I wonder if how much should I save to be able to have this kind of house. Very close to what I was dreaming when I was a kid which is “Fairyland”.

Drive a fancy car. Of course I would love to ride that kind of car aight? Who wouldn’t want to have that car?  Drive around the city and basically have a car to take me to the place I want to see. It may not be exactly this very expensive car but maybe a simple but nice SUV or car would do. A RAV4, CRV or the likes will do 😀

Travel around the world. Well another dream that I am starting to achieve now. Been to few countries now and I am aiming to visit and see more. But of course my dream travel would be around European countries. I would love to see Venice, Prague, Rome, France, Italy, Romania and the likes. I love to watch Samantha Brown at Travel and Living channel. I love to watch Ian Wright, his wacky side just simply amazed me with his show Globe Trekker.  Another Travel host that I love is Anthony Bourdain where he visits overseas countries, cities worldwide, and places within the US, where hosts treat him to local culture and cuisine.

Own business. Been saving for this one now. I know some of you will say, try to buy a house first. But for me I would rather have my own business first. Because if the business is already stable, then I could start planning my own house right? I would like to have even just a food cart in a mall. I will start first with small business. Or I would want to start buying some PX goods like those from Hong Kong, China, US, Malaysia, Thailand and sell it here which I think is a good business too. My sister has her own resto and computer shop already, given to her by her husband. But I would want to have those kind of business in the future so I would need to work double time. 🙂 I know, I can start a small business by next year.

And lastly, a happy family of my own. I would like to strive hard and have a comfortable life for my family. I think this is the most simplest wish but the hardest one to achieve. I wish to wake up each morning with Ouchies, I wish I could take away all those pains. But I know I cannot simply take that away. Everytime I try to be near you, you just simply push me away. You would want me to be happy that is what you always say but you also know it is only you who can me feel happy. I just simply wish that “You are mine”…

My first

Love your job

Yesterday, I was asked by my boss if I know what happened to a friend of mine who transferred to another client who is also our client. I am not updated with what happened so I told him no. I told him what I know which this friend of mine told us, that he is going to Australia for business trip and I told my boss that was like three week ago.

And he told me, “He isn’t connected with that company anymore”. I was so surprised with what I have heard. Because before my friend left our company, he told me that he is seeing himself to be with this new company in the next 7 years or so.. But how come he was with them only for less than a month and now he is leaving them.. Did he really leave them or something went wrong.

I remember when we was with our company, he has a lot of complain and honestly I also have complains but not that major that I would want to leave our company.

He would always complain about workload and the likes but I think he also have point why. But what I can’t understand that we are not always loaded and work comes to their department very rare.

So now he got this job, his salary was doubled and he got a lot more perks there. He got his own office and he got people to man just like what he always complains. He used to be an Assistant Manager here but he whines about not having people to lead. I think it is not necessary for their department since their projects is not as frequent as we do in our team.

And so he already got this job offer, we asked him more than twice if he is sure about it. Oh by the way, he just got out from military service and our company is his first corporate job. Given with what he used to get while he was with the military service, our compensation is thrice of his income there. And now he got this job offer from our client, everything is doubled up and he is very eager to move.

I see myself in him. When I first got my job with this large and very well known multinational consumer and pharmaceutical company. I was very curious what is it out there for me. I was not contented with what I am getting and the days I spent answering those phone calls dreaded me. So like my friend, I look for another company.

My friend is a family man, when he decided to signed that contract, he made already advance plans. Like moving his kids to some prestigious school. I can’t blame him, his salary is enough to send two children in that kind of school. Moving his entire family from province to Manila. But now it will just remain as plan and nothing will be materialized unless he finds new job with the same salary range.

I guess contentment with what we have and being appreciative is the key. We need to learn to love our job, in fact everything we have. We need to learn to be appreciate even the simplest thing we have. Because we will never know until when we will be blessed with those things.

Some people whine and complain how hard their job is, but they didn’t realize they are still more lucky because they got the job. There will be a lot of people who would love to trade their place with what we have now. They are trying so hard to find job to be able to have a monthly income and now we our job and yet we keep on whining. Why? Because we do not how to appreciate things that we have.

Very ironic, I would also want to quit my job but I think it is God’s sign that I need to hold on. And last night, I evaluate things that I have specially my job. I realized, I love my job and with my 8 jobs (this is my 8), I only have 2 jobs that I would say I love the most, my very first job and this my current job. It is just too bad my friend have to lose his job first before I appreciate my job now.

Thanks to him 🙂

I am staying

Trust me when I said I have never met anyone like you. I have been through this before. Having to decide whether I should let go or stay as I am. I have never cared how people will look, how people will think. Because to me YOU are the most important thing that matters now. People can lie, people can try, people can hurt, they can try to imitate me as much as they want, say whatever they want, do whatever they want. I DON’T CARE, because I know that we are different. We are strong. And each time stronger than ever! And my decision? I’m telling the world now… I’M HAPPY LIKE THIS! And I’M HAPPY WITH YOU!!! NO ONE CAN EVER CHANGE THAT EXCEPT US!!! US! To hell with the world I DON’T CARE!!! I AM STAYING WITH YOU TILL THE DAY YOU SAY NO TO ME!!

Wait for you

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

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