Hate that I Love you

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can’t stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No….)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won’t let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can’t remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it…
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long that’s wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it…
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah…)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you…)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it’s not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I… love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh… Oohh…

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you (can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go (but I just can’t let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so…

Yes I hate how much I love you my baby…. I think you will always have a spell on me. No matter how much I fight this feeling, you got me already. The whole of me… You’re half of me, without you, I will no longer be whole…

I love you so much baby!

Special day

My computer clock says 12:05, 5 minutes ago, it is our monthsary. How time flies if you’re in love. The feeling is so strong and it made me forget the rest.  It brings back smile to me how we end up together. It all started with a joke. 🙂

That day, I really wanted erase him from my contact list (both cellphone and chikka). Why? I know all his dark secrets that I think if another girl would be listening, would be a huge turn off for them. But it happened differently in my case. I fell for this great guy.

He admits being playboy, loves to love girls. As he always says, he has a lot of love to give. But I still wonder until now, why I do love him this much. The foundation of our relationship are friendship and trust.

So when the 24th came, I was already decided to erase him from my contact list if he won’t even feel that I do like him. Yes, I am willing to take the risk to be with him. So when I texted him, he replied to me, asking me how I was and the likes. Till we end up talking about the guy whom he is suppose to set me up. Then I blurted out, “Hay hirap talaga magkahowe.” (*sigh*, it is hard to find a boyfriend), then he replied to me, “Can I be your howe?”. Surprised but smiling, that’s what I felt. And I asked him, “Are you serious?”, then he said “Yes”.

So there we end up being together. Then he admitted, he fell in love with me long time ago. But didn’t bother to pursue it because with all the things he had told me, there would be no reason for me to love him. But he was surprised to find out, I fell in love with him despite those.

One by one, he dropped all his girls and told me, he never felt this kind of love for the longest time. Most of the girls he was with are nothing serious and the other one is just because he feel pity for that girl that is why he can’t leave her. The last time he felt this kind of love was when he was in college, with his first love. I was blushing and smiling. I know he was telling me the truth. During the time when we were friends, he never lied to me. And that’s what we promised to each other, to never lie. Tell the truth even if it hurts.

And now, we reached our monthsary. I can’t help but smile. I am so happy to have a wonderful man with me. Someone who loves me and cares for me. Someone who completes me.