My American Heart

Quite surprised today when I received his phone call. He is calling me from California. Let me try to introduce this guy. This is the guy I was with for 6 years. I met him through a common friend named Bao. Bao was so eager to help me go to US that time and we are thinking of ways how. Till he remembered his friend named Casey. “Casey is such a nice guy”, that what’s Bao said. And told him, “Is he willing to help me out?”. He said “Of course he will, and I am pretty sure he will fall for you”. So he gave me his number then I called.

The moment he picked up the phone, I said, he must be good looking and indeed nice. So we talked over the phone for the next 2 hours. We exchange questions about ourselves, things we would like to know about us. And it does include why I would want to move to US and if I am ready to marry a foreigner. Yes at that time, we both know it is just plainly “marry me and once I get my greencard, we’re done”.

But see, for a year that we chat, talk and exchange emails there is something strange feelings that started to grow inside me. A feeling that I can’t explain. So it came to a point that he admitted to me, he is falling for me as well and so am I.

When I hear Estelle`s song American boy, he is the first that came into my mind. The song fits…

Take me on a trip, I’d like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I’d love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You’ll be my American Boy.

He said Hey Sister.
It’s really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guy who’s just my type.
I like the way he’s speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don’t like his baggy jeans but Ima like what’s underneath them.
And no I ain’t been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York’s heart awaits. First let’s see the west end.
I’ll show you to my Bredrin.
I’m liking this American Boy. American Boy

Take me on a trip, I’d like to go some day
Take me to New York, I’d love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You’ll be my American Boy, American Boy.

Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let’s go shopping baby then we’ll go to a Café.
Let’s go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I’d like to see what’s good.
Dressed in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker’s looking Fresh to Death I’m lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.
Talk that slick talk.
I’m likin this American Boy. American Boy.

Take me on a trip, I’d like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I’d love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You’ll be my American Boy

Our relationship is not the typical relationship. We have Long Distance Relationship. And it requires a lot of trust. Eventhough he is in US and I am here in the Philippines, it did not stop us from having a wonderful relationship. He made me feel special and loved. That even he is thousand of miles away, I know he is faithful and loyal to me. He remains true. Whenever girls are around him, he is proud to tell them he is with a Filipina Girl. And that he loves me so much. So girls would usually say, that I am luck, well I am.. He is good looking, sexy, smart,sweet, nice, God fearing.. Almost perfect.

I met his mom over the phone. She is a very nice and fine woman. A woman full of love and compassion. A very ideal future mother in law.

He took care of me in a very special way even he is out there. Now I am confused because he starts communicating with me again.

I am torn between Ouchies and to my American heart.

Till then..


6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Life for Beginners | Kenny Mah
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 04:36:36

    Sometimes you just have to wait and trust your heart will answer.


  2. equilibrium2008
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 06:01:17

    Yes I know, I hope I can decide and find the answer soon. 🙂


  3. rhosie
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 06:19:09

    hmmm..i think you need to decide which one will make you happy and complete as a the the end of the day whether it will turn good or not make sure that you don’t have any regrets and you made the right choice.Godbless


  4. equilibrium2008
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 06:54:08

    Thanks Rosie, I will keep that in mind.Problem is, both have their own way to make me feel complete.. Labo no? but its true. I am still confuse though 😦


  5. rhosie
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 09:28:00

    yup…hirap nga pero a bit nakakarelate ako dun sa american heart mo..i agree, long distance relationship is a bit harder…lots of patience and trust needed to survive…kaya mo yan,just take time to decide and make sure no turning back whatever your choice will make…sabi nga :love is like taking a gamble and risks but after you survive it, it is a different feeling and fulfillment..


  6. equilibrium2008
    Jul 16, 2008 @ 23:37:03

    Thanks. American heart was with me for 6 years, Ouchies right now is with me for almost a year and half. I just hope to find out the answer. 🙂 Thanks again. 😉


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