Boys Don’t Cry

I would say I’m sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I’ve said too much
Been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It’s too late
And now there’s nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry

I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it’s no use
That you’ve already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
’cause boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry
Boys don’t cry

My dreamland

Everybody have their own wishes. They say don’t be afraid to dream  because dreaming is free. Well I believe it is absolutely true. Nobody can stop anyone from dreaming. It is where they try to change their reality, a place where nobody can judge them, A world where they are the Star of their own movie. 🙂

When I was a kid, I remember I would dream that I am a supermodel and to be Hollywood actress. Walking in that catwalk and there are flashes of lights, everybody is clapping at me and cheering and on that same crowd, some girls would just simply envy me. This my dream, and in this dream I am the Star. Or dreaming to be walking on that red carpet during OSCAR Award. Paparazzi is everywhere and trying to get my picture and an ambush interview. And sometimes I would dream that I am princess living in a castle. I got everything I need there. I don’t need to worry. Gosh, it is just so nice to dream…

As I mature, my dreams and wishes changes as well. Something more achievable, close to reality. My childhood dream is just way impossible to achieve since I know supermodels are tall and I am not. 😀 But I would like to share to you what are my dreams now…

My ‘own’ house. Everybody I think does want to have their own home. But I would love to have this kind of house. Very cute huh?! I wonder if how much should I save to be able to have this kind of house. Very close to what I was dreaming when I was a kid which is “Fairyland”.

Drive a fancy car. Of course I would love to ride that kind of car aight? Who wouldn’t want to have that car?  Drive around the city and basically have a car to take me to the place I want to see. It may not be exactly this very expensive car but maybe a simple but nice SUV or car would do. A RAV4, CRV or the likes will do 😀

Travel around the world. Well another dream that I am starting to achieve now. Been to few countries now and I am aiming to visit and see more. But of course my dream travel would be around European countries. I would love to see Venice, Prague, Rome, France, Italy, Romania and the likes. I love to watch Samantha Brown at Travel and Living channel. I love to watch Ian Wright, his wacky side just simply amazed me with his show Globe Trekker.  Another Travel host that I love is Anthony Bourdain where he visits overseas countries, cities worldwide, and places within the US, where hosts treat him to local culture and cuisine.

Own business. Been saving for this one now. I know some of you will say, try to buy a house first. But for me I would rather have my own business first. Because if the business is already stable, then I could start planning my own house right? I would like to have even just a food cart in a mall. I will start first with small business. Or I would want to start buying some PX goods like those from Hong Kong, China, US, Malaysia, Thailand and sell it here which I think is a good business too. My sister has her own resto and computer shop already, given to her by her husband. But I would want to have those kind of business in the future so I would need to work double time. 🙂 I know, I can start a small business by next year.

And lastly, a happy family of my own. I would like to strive hard and have a comfortable life for my family. I think this is the most simplest wish but the hardest one to achieve. I wish to wake up each morning with Ouchies, I wish I could take away all those pains. But I know I cannot simply take that away. Everytime I try to be near you, you just simply push me away. You would want me to be happy that is what you always say but you also know it is only you who can me feel happy. I just simply wish that “You are mine”…