The Bitter truth
15 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
in Life, Love Tags: bitter truth, quotes
Travel deep inside yourself without the baggage of conditioning.Be an explorer, have patience and eventually your true nature will surface. You will return from your journey with fresh skin and you will approach each day with a wonderful sense of wonder and bliss. ~Marco R. Capristo
finally found her– The love of my life! Too bad her girlfriend Found her first. ~Edward Etter
I’m walking down the street and i see you caught my attention your shirt that’s blue how pathetic am I? To fall on color blue not on the person wearing through. Is it love? Or juz another feeling that will tear me of. ~Anonymous
It’s better to have never felt the happiness of love than to be tortured by the pain of it ending. ~Mike
Im jealous of every girl who has ever hugged you, because for that one moment they held my entire world tears are like kisses, the only real ones are the ones you cant hold back never make someone your everything, because when they are gone you have nothing. You will never know true pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love, and they look away The scars are nothing compared to the pain that put them there goodbye is only painful when you know you can never say hello again How can you learn from your mistakes when mistakes are all you’ve ever made What’s the point in living when the ones you love the most refuse to love you break my heart and tell me lies, because eventually every heart dies. -Michelle Mace
The word love… is so powerfull that once a guy says it they have total access to a girls heart… but no matter how many times a girl says it she cant stop them from leaving with it… ~Anonymous
Where did life go?…and why did it run away??…and how come evrrything has to change? ~Anonymous
A millon words would not bring u back…i know cause ive tried…and a millon tears wouldnt either…i know because ive cried ~Anonymous
You smile when your feel like crying…you act like your okay..when your really falling apart inside…and you let it go….you move on because thres nothing else u can do or say. ~Anonymous
If he was stupid enough to walk away be smart enough to let him go. ~Anonymous
Live your life as it’s givin onse, use it as you wish, laugh on tough day’s and drop a tear or two on death day’s. Life is good and so is time. Love every moment of it and you will be fine. ~Shaima mohammed
Love is thinking about them all day and all night no matter how hard you try to stop. Love is every morning you wake up he is the 1st face that pops in your mind and the last face b4 u fall asleep. Love is the tickles that you get in your tummy everytime you see their face in ur head. Love is the warmth and protection you felt the first time u saw him Love is the best feeling you could ever have U have the key to my heart Ur the only one to come in Someday U’ll find the way! I Love U!!! ~Anonymous
I would love to be what i like to love what i am. ~Orion
ex boyfriends are like herpes, once u have them u can never get rid of them and when they break through it gets messy. ~Anonymous
the person you would call a sholder to cry on is the person that mad you cry… tell me whats worse than that ? ~Anonymous
If tomorrow can be terrible than today.. today is better. If tomorrow is better than today..today is the worst. If today and tomorrow are going to be the same…. i am happy. ~Tina
P-Perfect, R-Radiant, I-Irresistible, N-Never- Wrong , C-Cute, E-Everything Cute and Adorable, S-Super Woman S-Soooo SpecialPrincess=ME! ~Anonymous
Love is like a roller coaster when it’s all over you throw up ~Brooke
Guys are like dogs. Put them on a leash and they’ll be chassing every puss in sight! ~Brittany Abner
So I don’t make you happy anymore so let me be and send me back to my maker. ~Anonymous
i pretend to be the girl youre looking for to fall madly deeply in love but it back fires and turns to hatred. ~Anonymous
Don’t you love it when a guy’s arm goes all the way around you when you’re kissing; and the girl next to you thinking the same thing? ~Nicole
A wise girl kisses, but doesn’t love…listens but doesn’t believe and leaves before she is left. ~Natalie
Love Starts with a smile….grows with a kiss…and ends with a tear. -Kourtney
Sometimes It’s Best To Leave Your Ex’s Where You Found Them!!!! -Anonymous
when you are born the people around you are smiling and you are crying live your life so that when you die your the one smiling and the people around you are crying. -Anonymous
if barbie has so many friends why do you have to buy them? -Anonymous
If something is not worth fighting for, then it is not worth keeping. -Leena
They say to follow your heart, but how can you when it is blinded by love. -Anonymous
shit happens, if it’s yours wipe it up. –LRT
If you want to get the chances. You got to beat the odds. -Anonymous
To Every Girl It only takes one bad boyfriend to realize that you deserve SO much more. -Anonymous
Keep Talkin’ cus I love It! Its when they stop talking about you that you gotta start worryin! -Anonymous
Humans will kill each other…And when the last one stands among the corpses of his brothers….It is then that he will beg for death. Humans will curse their friends… Till he has no more… And in the end he’ll realize… He’s all alone. Humanity will kill for riches…. And then kill one another. By the time man realizes he cannot eat money….They will begin to eat each other. Have not pity. They are but animals. Killing the planet. And destroying their souls. -Rooster
And I wait… For an endless song that never starts, For a cure to the age-old broken heart. ~Janessa
There’s a difference between optimism and naïveté… ~Janessa
Laugh and the world laughs with you… cry and the world laughs at you -Hevinlee Melton
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time.You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upsetis a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. -Dirissy
For the ones who are Luckly, lucky they are. For those who aren’t lucky, let them make there choice. -Dark Magnus
This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time. -Fight Club
There comes a point in every girls life where she realizes that she just needs to let it go, I mean nothings ever gonna change the fact that at one point I really did love you with everything in me…It’s just the fact that I simply cannot do this to myself and I cannot make this work …face it baby we’re in a lose-lose situation…and as far as you’re concerned i’m just on one of my “im leaving for good this time” kicks again, but the olny difference is this time it’s real… I’m done, and don’t bother because you’re never gonna change, honestly you CAN’T change & we BOTH know that…So when you finally realized that I loved you anyway more than I ever could have loved anyone else, you’ll see something more in me, something that you’re forced to live without.
Can you see it? It’s in my sweet sweet smile! Its in my laugh! Its in my eyes! its there can you see it now? its the pain of leaving you!!!!! -Emily W
Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself. ~Emon
Loving a man is like loving a child, if you dont correct them when they upset you….they will never learn how to treat you with respect. ~Emma
You told me what I wanted to hear, but it was just a sweet nothing whispered in every girls ear. Sometimes A Sorry Being Said By The Mouth… Means Nothing From The Heart… ~Thuy(Twee)D
Time heals and reveals. ~Valerie
Some of us think holding on makes us stronger, but sometimes it’s letting go that proves our real strength! ~Alicia
Yet Again, It has been proven to me, that no matter what…I will always be considered the exspendable person. ~Jessi
The only true painful good-byes are the ones that are never said and never explained. ~Farah Jawaid
Falling in love is like falling off a building it dosent hurt till the end. ~Unknown
Just when you thought you had it all, it all falls apart. ~Jess
A friend hears the words you say a true friends reads the feels in between the words and when together with a true friend and you’re are feeling down words are not needed. ~Unknown
If you love someone, give them the option to leave, but never give them a reason to. ~Unknown
Only someone who has cried a great deal understands why someone else wants to stop the tears. ~V.C. Andrews
True love is like Santa, you grow up believing in it then find out it just doesn’t exsist. ~ Angela
The last time I got over you, you were lying flat on your face and all I had to do was jump… ~Jessica
In the whole of the universe there are only two: the lover and the beloved. ~Bhai Sahib
It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves. ~William Shakespeare
I existed from all eternity and, behold, I am here; and I shall exist till the end of time, for my being has no end. ~Kahlil Gibran
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up. Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. ~James Baldwin
It is hard to believe that a man is telling the truth when you know that you would lie if you were in his place. ~H.L. Mencken
Ideas pull the trigger, but instinct loads the gun. ~Don Marquis
Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved. ~William Jennings Bryan
Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted. ~Albert Einstein
What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from. ~T.S. Eliot
We never know the worth of water ’til the well is dry. ~English Proverb
EX-boyfriends are like bad smells that linger in your mind. The only way to get rid of them is to pretend they are not there or replace them!
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesnt mean leaning and company doesnt mean security, And you begin to learn that kisses arent contracts and presents arent promises, And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really are strong, And you really do have worth.
Yes, there are alot of fish in the sea, but I think there’s a hole in my net.
Sometimes the Only Harder then Finding the Man of Your Dreams is Losing Him.
It is said that you don’t know what you have until it’s gone. But, it is also true that you don’t know what you have been missing until it arrives!
They say follow your heart. But when your heart is in so many pieces. Which way are you to follow?
No man is ever worth your tears, and the one who is will never make you cry.
If you love something, and are dumb enough to let it go..you didn’t deserve it in the first place.
Tears of sadness make room in your heart for joy.
Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes…just be an illusion.
If you had to chose between someone you love or someone who loves you, pick the person who loves you because you can learn to love someone but you cant make someone love you back.
I wish i were a little girl again, because skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person started hating us, but because we found out that they’d be happier if we let them go.
I can say I’m fine when you don’t see me cry. I can say I could move on when I can’t even try. I can say I’m happy when I just wanna die, but there’s one thing I can’t say…” love you” when you said, “goodbye.”
I cry for the time you were almost mine, I cry for the memories you’ve left behind. I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, and the new… I cry for the times I thought I had you.
What do I have to do to make you notice me too? What do I have to say to make you fell this way? What do I have to be to make you start loving me?
It’s hard to pretend you love someone if you really don’t, but it’s harder to pretend you don’t love someone if you really do.
It’s better to love someone you can’t have than to have someone you can’t love.
How do I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is it that I miss someone I was never with? And I’ll ask why I love someone whose love was never mine.
Once in my life I laughed. Once in my life that empty space in my heart was filled. Once in my life I loved someone more than anything in this world. For once in my life, I had you.
When you love someone you must be ready to sacrifice anything, even if that anything includes your happiness.
When you love, you must not expect anything in return, for if you do you are not loving but investing. If you love, you must prefer to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you are not loving, but using.
The hardest thing in life is watching somone you love, fall in love with somebody else. Nothing is more painful then realizing they meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him. Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does. You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.
Forgive
17 Nov 2009 1 Comment
I have been spending time with my new found friend. Never did I expect I would find that sister I was looking for, for a long time. In her I feel strong and wise, which I never felt when I was with my true sister. Sometimes, the family you were looking for can be found in other people. It’s the reality I have experienced and I must say, “reality bites”…
Anyways, she’s been going through tough times now. She is realizing some truths about her friends and ex love. I think this poem is appropriate for her.. I hope she likes it…
You forgive me for liking you too much,
And I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough.
You forgive me for missing you so,
And I’ll forgive you for being so cold.
You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,
And I’ll forgive you for not hearing it.
You forgive me for playing your games,
And I’ll forgive you for toying with my emotions.
You forgive me for finding you so attractive,
And I’ll forgive you for not noticing.
You forgive me for raising you up so high,
And I’ll forgive you for bringing me down so low.
You forgive me for wanting to be with you,
And I’ll forgive you for avoiding me.
You forgive me for being so pathetic,
And I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it.
You forgive me for not being able to let go,
And I’ll forgive you for never having latched on.
You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,
And I’ll forgive you for crushing them.
Forgiveness brings inner peace.
Do we have a deal?
I Love You More Today Than Yesterday
19 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
in Love, Music Tags: baby, i love you more today than yesterday, my sexy love, spiral staircase
I don’t remember what day it was
I didn’t notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I’ll be spending time with you
Every day’s a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I’ll be spending time with you
Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow
Tomorrow’s date means springtime’s just a day away
Cupid, we don’t need ya now, be on your way
I thank the Lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I know you feel the same way, too
Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow
Every day’s a new day
Every time I love ya
Every way’s a new way
Every time I love ya
Every day’s a new day
Every time I kiss ya
Every day’s a new day
fade out…
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY!!!!
Love quotes
08 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
kung isang araw magcing ka at maisip mong nag-iisa ka’t wlang kasama.. m2log ka ulit.. bka naiwan lang ako sa panaginip mo dhil hangga’t nand2 ako hindi k mag-iisa! pangako yan..
mhirap mwalan ng kaibigan, ng kabarkada, ng kasama, ng 2lad mo.. mahirap: pag kw nwla. mas mahirap: kw hanapin. pnkmahirap: kw palitan! at NEVER ko un gagawin..
bukas.. bka makalimot n tau pwedeng magkanyakanya.. na maaaring yun n ang katapusan kya bago pa mangyari ang lhat ng un gus2 kong sbhin.. salamat.. binuo mo ang buhay ko..
pag may “ikaw” my “ako”. di aalis c “ako” kc mahal nya c “ikaw”. pag wala n c “ikaw” la na rin c “ako”.. bakit? kc c “ikaw” ang buhay ni “ako”.. ingat c “ikaw” dhil nag-aalala c “ako”..
Minsan tinanong kita, “bakit mo sya mahal? ” sabi mo sa kin,” kse matagal na napagsamahan namin”, nainis ako kse manhid ka, di m0 man lang naisip na kung gaano kayo katagal, mas matagal kitang hinintay
Pag iniwan ba kita… Iiyak ka ba? Malulungkot? Masasaktan? Magdaramdam? Cguro ako hindi… Cguradong hindi… Kita iiwan
Even if someone already owns your heart, i dont give a damn! Though the pain is killing me, i wont care at all! I wont steal you from her but ill tell her… “mahalin mo siya para sa akin ha…”
kahit gaano ko kalakas isigaw sa buong mundo kung gaano pa rin kita kamahal, hindi mo ito maririnig dahil iba na mundo mo
dati ang saya saya natin dati di matapos yung mga kwentuhan dati sobrang dami nating alam sa isa’t-isa pero dati lng pala yon!!!! ngayon……. iba na ang lahat……..
u sed u luv me, u care and ul always b der bt wen i was abt 2 say iluvu2, u smyld and sed “practice lang, di ko kazi masabi sa kanya eh..”
Sabi nila… find a true person, yung tanggap ka? yung di ka iiwan in times of trouble.. yung the best?! Natawa ako… kse sa isip ko.. Bakit pa? Eh… nandyan ka na!
Minsan, hirap din pala magpahalaga sa isang tao.. yun tipong lagi ka andyan para sa kanya, kasama sa gitna ng gyera, karamay sa problema.. Tapos 1 araw, magigising ka na lang…iniwan ka rin pala!!!
Minsan ang daling sabihing mahal mo sya pero ang totoo, mas mahal mo yung isa! pero bakit mo pinipilit na mahalin yung isa? Simple lang! Syempre,
para makalimutan mo yung mahal mong talaga! Tama ba?
Aalis ako kasi may iba kang gusto.. .Aalis ako kasi alam kong mahal mo cya at mahal ka rin nya.. .Aalis na lang ako ha? Kasi sa tingin ko,masaya ka na…
Pero babalik din ako…Pag iniwan ka nya
Der are times in my life that i just want 2 give up & let lose, but have you ever thought why I’m still here fighting against depression..? Kse andyan ka e… Wag mo ko iiwan ha..! Bibigay ako
Sabi mo andyan ka lang..Pero bakit wala ka? Sabi mo di mo ko iiwan..Pero asan ka? Sabi mo mahal mo ko..Pero bakit d ko maramdaman? Yun pala sinabi mo lang lahat yun.. .Para d ako masaktan
Pag sobrang lapit mo sa isang kaibigan, matutunan mo syang mahalin noh?
Kaya wag kang lalapit sa akin ha? At baka mahalin kita… tapos yun pala para sayo “friend” mo lang ako…
noon sabi mo, hindi kita iiwan. Magkasama tayo kahit na anong laban…
ipagtatangol, poprotektahan… naniwala namana ko… nasiyahan… yun pala hindi na natin kailangan ng laban…. Dumating lang siya… alam ko na kung sinong talunan
Natatandaan mo dati…umiiyak ako… Sabi mo “tama na! nandito lang ako…”
tapos ngayon umiiyak pa rin ako..pero ang sinabi mo.. .”tama na,makakalimutan mo rin ako..”
I’ve always thought that i have 2 fight 4 what i really feel, I’ve fought & got hurt, still i tried 2 give it a chance.. But now i don’t know if i still believe in that kse tao lang ako… Napapagod din!!
Alam ko hindi mo sinabi na maghintay ako.. In fact, u even told me 2 forget u.. I promise, I’m trying but i really can’t… Di ko alam kung bakit ako ganito..
Nagpapakat**** at nagpapakag*g*ng maghintay at magmahal sa isang taong nde ako kayang mahalin…
Alam ko kung pano umiyak, kse pinaiyak mo na ako, alam ko kung pano masaktan, kse nasaktan mo na ako. pero alam mo kung ano ang hindi ko alam? Ang magmahal ng iba at iwan ka.
Kala ko nun tapos na… kala ko nakalimutan na kita, di ko inaasahang aabot sa ganito… nababaliw na ko sa pagmamahal sayo! ito lang tanong ko,ako kaya…mahal mo?!
Ilang beses ko na sinabi sa sarili ko na hinding-hindi na kita mamahalin,
ngunit tuwing nakikita kita laging sinasabi ng puso ko “hanggang ngayon mahal pa din kta. Di yun magbabago!”
mas mahirap ang umasa na isang araw mamahalin ka rin ng mahal mo dahil sa bawat pagkakataon na nalalaman mong may mahal syang iba at hindi ikaw.
di ba sagad hanggang buto ang sakit?
Napangiti ka na ba niya dahil andyan sya? Nabuo na ba araw mo? Pakiramdam mo ba sya na? Nagpapasalamat ka ba dahil nakilala mo sya?
Siguro “oo” sagot mo…E pano yan.. Mahal ka ba niya?
If you were beside me, i’d stare at you, look deep into your eyes while holding you very tight… And as i look at your face, i’d close my eyes and pray…
I’ wish to god…God… Sana habambuhay akin lang sya…”
Nasaktan ka ba ng malaman mong may mahal na kong iba?… Pasensya na ha..ayoko na kasing umasa… pagod na rin kong maghintay… pero makakatulong ba kung sabihin kong… handa ko siyang iwan para sa yo….
Iiwan mo ko? Sayang!… mahal pa naman kita… sakin ah! Pero sabagay bat nga naman ako masasaktan? E kahit kelan naman,di ka naging akin!
Sabi mo gusto mo ko, sabi mo konting panahon na lang magkakasama na tayo, sabi mo iiwan mo na sya…sabi mo intayin kita, sabi mo mas mahal mo ako, bakit ngayon asan ka na? Bakit kapiling ka pa rin nya.
Love quotes
07 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
in Anything goes, Inspirational, Love Tags: Love, quotes
A girl love this boy. but the boy didn’t mind. One day the girl got sick
and was about to die. Then the boy asked, Why are you leaving me?
then the girl answered, so I can be your angel and love you forever
Would you be my angel, to have and to hold?
Would you be my rose, to cherish more than gold?
I love you so much. I wish you were mine, but all I can do is wait till that time.
People only realize what they had after they lose it, so hold onto what you have and never let it go.
As you look back upon your life, you find the times when you have most lived, are the times when you have lived for love
I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change
I’m living every moment like its my last No longer letting my future be based on my past
Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never… never forget it.
I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you
Love is not measured by how you feel, but how you make the other person feel.
You don’t marry someone you can live with. – you marry the person who you cannot live without.
….
12 Jul 2009 2 Comments
in Life, Love, Personal Tags: Family, Life, Love, Personal
As I move forward and excited about the baby, there are still some anxieties that I cannot remove from my head. Anxieties that I just all within myself.
It’s hard to pretend it’s not happening, but why not, it is happening to me. It’s here, a reality I cannot ignore. Does it always have to include pains in every joy a person will have? Or can it just be plain happiness with no consequences involved? I have tried to live a fair life, a life wherein other people’s need is more important than my needs. I have neglected my needs for a long time and it’s not good.
Now the happiness I am longing for is within my reach or shall I say it’s in my hand but why can’t I be happy without feeling this pain inside me. I try to tell myself, it’s all in my head but it is not. No matter what I do, it’s there, right in front of my face.
How can I be truly happy? Is it something that’s so hard to achieve? Something I don’t deserve?
Why I cant have the whole pie, but instead just have a slice of it and share the entire pie with others?
Why? Am I that bad? Do I deserve this? I know a lot of people will just tell me, then walk away… But how can you walk away from the only happiness you ever have in your entire life? I wish it could be that easy… I wish it’s as easy as saying, “Leave if you can’t take it anymore”… But it’s not the solution to problem. It’s just an immediate solution but not a lifetime one. Once it’s there, the effect could be far worse than holding on.
Now what am I suppose to do, I’m lost and confused..
I hope this is it…
21 Apr 2009 3 Comments
in Family, Love, Personal Tags: Personal
I’m having this weird bleeding since last week. Not a regular menstruation I guess but rather a very short or most likely spotting only. I wonder if this what you call ‘implantation bleeding’. I am expecting to have my period this 24th, but I am hoping and praying that I am really pregnant. According to my doctor, I am showin’ signs of a pregnant woman, coz if I do now, I am on my third week.
But things aren’t always goin’ smoothly lately. Most of the times I feel so alone and just tryin to cover all the pains inside me. I try to smile so no one would know that I am hurting..
I guess I am good at it. Been good at it the longest time I can remember.
Now May 15 is also near, I need to prepare myself for looking for a new job. I cannot afford to be totally dependent on my bf. Especially if I am pregnant. I need to find a new job before May ends.
In these past three months, all I do is wonder. Whether I would still want a 8-5 job or I would want to set up my own biz. I will be getting a separation pay and I might use it for small biz. But darn, deep inside of me I am scared. What if the biz won’t work out? What will happen to me and my baby if in case?
A lot of things have been goin’ on my head. I have no one to talk to. I envy those people who have a lot of friends. I do have friends but they are too far right now. Some of them, they just left me. Now I am missing Jen.. I wish she’s here.
And right now, my bf and I argue a lot. And sometimes, I just want to give up. But should I give up now if I have a baby now?
Right now, I dunno what to do?
Live life over
08 Mar 2009 2 Comments
in Inspirational, Life, Love
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained and the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the ‘good’ living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about grass stains. I would have cried and laughed less while watching television – and more while watching life.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren’t there for the day.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn’t show soil or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I’d have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, “Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.”
There would have been more “I love yous”… more “I’m sorrys”…but mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute… look at it and really see it…live it…and never give it back.
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In memory of Erma Bombeck who lost her fight with cancer. “Be courageous and bold. When you look back on your life, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the ones you did.”
My Wishlist
02 Mar 2009 4 Comments
in Family, Life, Love, Personal Tags: Family, Life, Love, Personal, wishlist
Oh well I know it’s kinda late now for my this year’s wishlist. However I would like to share it you. Too bad the idea just came to my head just last night while lying on my bed.
As you know, I will be losing my job on May 15 because of redundancy. The fact I will be losing my job makes me feel scared since I am supporting my family. But the fact that I know I can surpass this crisis since I’ve got the most loving, patient and supporting husband. (Oh well I considered him as my husband aight?!)
Okay now here’s my wishlist for this year:
1. Have a baby.. Well I hope its a baby girl since my hubby wants to have a princess. He’s excited to have a baby so his wish is my top priority. I guess He has always been my top priority since we were together.
2. Make my small business ventures a success. I have decided to start my small business. It is a fragrance business and I am planning to sell it to my friends and put some at my sister’s resto. Her place is a nice place to put one since there are a lot of students there. If this will be a hit, I am planning to start another one, an e-loading business. Oh well, I would love to have this business. Not that I’m lazy aight, but I don’t want to work anymore because I want to concentrate on taking care of my family. My husband and specially if I will get pregnant this year, our baby..
3. Find a new job. I would want to find new job but not as hectic as my previous one. I want a less stressful job so I will have more time taking care of my family.
4. To be less jealous. Oh well, insecurities always hits me. I am insecure of those girls paying attention to my sexy love. I know I am not pretty nor sexy and that makes me more insecure when he gives attention to those girls. Eventhough he would always tell me I’ve got the most beautiful brown eyes he have ever seen.
5. Learn to trust him again. We’ve got lot of issues lately and this is one thing I should try my best to learn…. To trust him again. I won’t elaborate further but I hope God will help me.
6. Enjoy every moment of my life. We’ll we will never know until when He will get us. But enjoying every moment of our life will at least make us feel more complete. Regrets will not be there but just pure satisfaction.
7. Love him more. I guess I have been loving him less because of my jealousy. I just hope it’s not too late.
I guess this is for it now… I think its doable…
Ciao!
I hate myself
14 Feb 2009 2 Comments
in Life, Love, Personal Tags: heart broken, Love
valentine45.html (and this the video attached to this poem)
Our love is the long lasting kind;
We’ve been together quite awhile.
I love you for so many things,
Your voice, your touch, your kiss, your smile. You accept me as I am;
I can relax and just be me.
Even when my quirks come out,
You think they’re cute; you let me be. With you, there’s nothing to resist;
You’re irresistible to me.
I’m drawn to you in total trust;
I give myself to you willingly. Your sweet devotion never fails;
You view me with a patient heart.
You love me, dear, no matter what.
You’ve been that way right from the start. Those are just a few reasons why
I’ll always love you like I do.
We’ll have a lifetime full of love,
And it will happen because of you.
Love is blind
11 Feb 2009 Leave a Comment
in Love Tags: Love, love is blind
A lot of us been hearin’ this phrase. But it was interesting to hear it over the news that it was proven in Science. So I made a research over the net for some article and found one. I hope you’d like it.
What exactly is love?
Falling in love may feel like a meeting of hearts and minds. But really it’s a kind of temporary insanity driven by hormones, scientists say. Julia Stuart reports
Tuesday, 13 February 2007
Love can be divided into three entities: lust, romance and attachment, according to anthropologist Dr Helen Fisher, who has been studying the subject for 32 years. These three brain systems can operate in any order and in any combination. You can fall in love with someone before you sleep with them; you can become deeply attached to somebody and then fall in love with them; and you can have a sexual relationship, fall in love and then become deeply attached.
Lust is a craving for sexual gratification, which you can feel for a whole range of people. Those caught up in romantic love focus all their attention on the object of their affection. Not only do they crave them, but they are highly motivated to win them, they obsessively think about them and become extremely sexually possessive. Perhaps illogically, if things go wrong. they are attracted to them even more. During this state the brain is driven by dopamine, a neurotransmitter central to the reward system.
Romantic love is much more powerful than sex drive, says Dr Fisher, of Rutgers University, New Jersey. And she believes it to be a drive, rather than an emotion. “It doesn’t have any facial expression, it’s very difficult to control and it’s one of the most powerful neural systems that has evolved,” she says.
The third brain system is attachment – that sense of calm and security you can feel for a long-term partner. It is associated with the hormones vasopressin and oxytocin, which are probably responsible for the sense of peacefulness and unity felt after having sex. Holding hands also drives up oxytocin levels, as does looking deeply into your loved one’s eyes, massage, and simply sitting next to them.
LOVE CAN IMPROVE YOUR HEALTH
Love can be good for your health. If you are married, or happily cohabiting, in the long term you will suffer from less depression and live significantly longer than those who are single, divorced or widowed. But to get the full health benefits, you have to pick the correct partner, argues Dr Raj Persaud in Simply Irresistible, the Psychology of Seduction.
The lowest mortality rates were found in those who were named by their partner as a key source of emotional support and closeness, but who themselves actually named someone else as the one special person in their life.
For both husbands and wives, the worst mortality rate was found in partners neither of whom named the other as the special person on whom they relied for emotional support and closeness.
BAD LOVE
Choose the wrong partner and you could be in trouble. Research suggests that an unhappy marriage raises your chances of developing clinical depression by around 30 per cent. Women who divorce are 60 per cent more likely to get heart disease in later life than those who stay married, according to research from Texas University.
A 10-year study of around 10,000 men and women in the Journal of Marriage and the Family found that the danger is gender-specific: among men, marital loss has a negligible effect on the risk of heart disease. The reason for this is not clear, though it may be that women tend to value themselves more in terms of family relationships, while men value themselves primarily in terms of their occupation.
A study of 101 divorced women by the US-based Veterans Affairs group found that marital dissolution can significantly increase their risk of suffering mental and physical health problems. The risk is highest among younger women who described their marriages as “harmonious”.
LOVE IS BLIND
Scientists have discovered that certain parts of the brain become deactivated when we’re in love, including areas linked with negative emotions, planning, critical social assessment, the evaluation of trustworthiness and fear.
Biological studies have found that this phase of reduced cognitive function, during which faults are ignored, can last from one to two and a half years. This temporary state of delusion has a vital human function. If we immediately saw all our partner’s faults, we would be less likely to form a stable relationship in which to produce children.
And it is just as well that it is short-lived: romantic love is has an enormous metabolic cost. “I think romantic love evolved to enable people to focus their mating energy onto just one person at a time, thereby conserving mating time and energy,” says Dr Fisher. “It’s not conducive to real life to live in this state for 20 years because you’re distracted by it, you can’t think of other things, you forget what you are doing, you probably don’t eat properly, you certainly don’t sleep well and you go through highs and lows.”
Problems can arise when the pink mist eventually lifts and we see our loved one for what they really are – as flawed as we are. It may to wise to wait until brain function is fully restored before making a decision to marry. By then you may well feel sufficiently attached to your partner to put up with their irritating habits. “I think attachment evolved to tolerate someone at least long enough to rear a child together,” says Dr Fisher. But don’t dismay that the best bit is over once lucidity returns. Couples can feel peaks of romantic love throughout their relationship.
WHAT BECOMES OF THE BROKEN-HEARTED?
Death rates rise significantly after the death of a spouse. In one of the largest scientific studies of its kind, the Population Research Unit at the University of Helsinki found that mortality rates were more than three times higher for men compared to women.
For both genders they are at their highest during the first week after the death of the spouse, and then they drop slowly but steadily during the following six months. The unit also found that the number of people dying as a result of blocked arteries around the heart rose dramatically after the death of a spouse.
“So it appears that the hearts of men, predominantly, often cannot cope with the grief of losing a life partner,” says Dr Raj Persaud. “These men are literally dying from a broken heart. One theory is that the grief of losing someone as close to you as a marriage partner is one of the greatest strains it is possible to face, and this enormous stress has a direct and deleterious effect on your physical health, in particular the cardiovascular system. Women perhaps cope with the stress of grief better than men because expressing emotional turmoil, venting distress, confiding in others and using formal resources such as psychotherapy are all more feminine strategies. Men tend to remain silent and keep feelings of distress and anxiety to themselves.”
LOVE HURTS, LITERALLY
Dr Helen Fisher and her team gave MRI scans to 17 people who were happy in love and 15 who had been rejected in love. The latter had been brokenhearted for an average of 63 days. In this group, they found activity in a region of the brain called the nucleus accumbens, which has a high number of dopamine receptors. “It suggests that when you have been dumped you love that person more,” says Dr Fisher. Activity was also found in parts of the brain associated with risk-taking, physical pain, obsessive-compulsive behaviour, controlling anger and theory of mind – imagining what the other person is thinking.
“It made me understand a little bit more about why people become so depressed,” says Dr Fisher. “You’re intensely in love, you have just been rejected, but you are still in love, if not even more so, and you are willing to take enormous risks. You are in physical as well as psychological pain, you are obsessing about this person, you are trying to control your anger and you’re trying to evaluate what to do next. You are in a very uncomfortable state. No wonder so many crimes of passion take place.”
DEATH BY MARRIAGE
If the stress of arranging a wedding doesn’t kill you, there is a higher-than-average chance of keeling over immediately after you’ve got hitched. For both men and women mortality rates rise in the period just after the wedding day, according to a recent survey of over 12,000 German adults.
The stress of a new situation may be a factor, as well as a profound change in living circumstances. “Marriage is often associated with a geographic move for at least one partner,” says Dr Persaud. “The spouse who moved may have had to cut emotional networks and change social interaction patterns and daily routines. However, after two years, the research suggests, married partners adapt to their new life and the mortality rate starts to improve compared to unmarried people.”
‘Til death do us part
* A study published in the Journal of Sex Research found that attractive people flirt more, even those with partners.
* Researchers found that one in four marriages continues because partners couldn’t find a better alternative. ‘Staying together for the sake of the children’ was the most common reason.
* Women generally seek status, occupational prestige and intelligence in a male partner, while men, in general, seek physical attractiveness in women.
* Research suggests that to help maintain a successful relationship you should say five positive things to your partner for each negative statement about them.
* When scientists gave MRI scans to 32 people who were madly in love and showed them a picture of their partner, it activated the part of the brain that responds when you feel the rush of cocaine.
* Obstacles heighten romantic love. If you fall in love with the person who lives next door, and they’re happily married, you could be suffering for decades.
* Researchers found that the first three minutes of a married couple’s argument indicate whether they will get divorced within six years. Those who engage in critical statements such as “you always” or “you never” are more likely to split up.
* A study of 37 middle-aged men found that lower testosterone levels were associated with better marital satisfaction and higher quality parent-adolescent relationships. Careers which encourage competitiveness in men drive up testosterone levels.
* Unmarried women have a significantly worse death rate from cancer than married women.
* Although research has shown that marriage is the greatest source of conflict as well as being the greatest source of satisfaction, the married are generally much happier than the unmarried.
‘Why We Love: The Nature and Chemistry of Romantic Love’ by Dr Helen Fisher is published in America by Henry Holt. ‘Simply Irresistible, the Psychology of Seduction and How to Catch and Keep your Perfect Partner’ by Dr Raj Persaud is published by Bantam Press, priced £12.99
Source:http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-wellbeing/health-news/what-exactly-is-love-436234.html
Valentines day, where does it really come from?
07 Feb 2009 2 Comments
in Love Tags: Love, Valentines day
A lot of us are feelin the season now. Season of love. As February 14 approaches, a lot of people are tryin to fall in love aight or keepin the love hmm shall I say to the next level.. I know everybody has this feelin’ inside them, but see this month love means something more special. Roses, chocolates, stuff toys are most common things you will see around you. Valentines party and events are happening in every corner. But as the years go by, the real meaning of Valentines vanished, as I observed. It became more commercialized just like Christmas and New Year.
But let’s try to see the history of this wonderful event…
Valentine’s Day or Saint Valentine’s Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine’s cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. The holiday is named after two among the numerous Early Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.
An alternative theory from Belarus states that the holiday originates from the story of Saint Valentine, who upon rejection by his mistress was so heartbroken that he took a knife to his chest and sent her his still-beating heart as a token of his undying love for her. Hence, heart-shaped cards are now sent as a tribute to his overwhelming passion and suffering.
The day is most closely associated with the mutual exchange of love notes in the form of “valentines.” Modern Valentine symbols include the heart-shaped outline, doves, and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten notes have largely given way to mass-produced greeting cards. The sending of Valentines was a fashion in nineteenth-century Great Britain, and, in 1847, Esther Howland developed a successful business in her Worcester, Massachusetts home with hand-made Valentine cards based on British models. The popularity of Valentine cards in 19th-century America was a harbinger of the future commercialization of holidays in the United States.
Source: Wikipedia
So I hope this information helps…
Advance happy valentines…
6th monthsary
25 Jan 2009 Leave a Comment
in Family, Inspirational, Love, Personal Tags: Love, monthsary, Tagaytay Highlands
I had so much fun with our last monthsary. Oh well we celebrated it earlier than our actual monthsary. But it was all worth it.
He picked me up Tuesday afternoon from the office and we went to Tagaytay Highlands. In fact, this trip was unplanned. Prior to this “unplanned” out of town trip, we had a fight. I thought it was his way of saying he was sorry. But hey, we can also consider this as our celebration too…
We stayed there from Tuesday night till Wednesday afternoon. In fact we were together till Thursday morning.
I would like to share our pictures.. Hope you like it guys..
View from Leslie
I love taking pictures of views around me. I know in the future, my baby and I will be looking back at these pictures with smile on our faces. I want to capture of every single moment with him.
I love you so much baby. Thank you for loving me and for just being there for me. I look forward in spending the rest of my life with you and our future babies.
Ugly
03 Jan 2009 Leave a Comment
in Inspirational, Love Tags: cat, Inspirational, Love, stories, Ugly
Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love.
The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner.
His tail has long age been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped-type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, and even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. “That’s one UGLY cat!!”
All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave. Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness.
Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If ever someone picked him up he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.
One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbor’s huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly’s sad life was almost at an end.
Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. “I must be hurting him terribly,” I thought. Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear.
Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to suckle my ear. I pulled him closer to me, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.
At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.
Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly.
Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful. He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply.
It was time to give my all to those I cared for. Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but for me, I will always try to be like Ugly.
Happy monthsary my love
22 Dec 2008 2 Comments
in Anything goes, Love, Personal
Well my computer clock says 3:46 A.M. and here I am still up and thinking of…. in fact i realized, I am thinking of nothing…
Later, my love will be here so we can wait together the 12 A.M. first hour of our monthsary. We’ve been together for only 5 months and yet we are both saying it seems like years already. We are so much in love that we cant stop but talk having future together.
I have learned a lot from him. From being tough to being wise about life. We compliment each other. His weakness is my strength and vice versa.
I don’t know what will I be if ever he will be gone. I have seen myself spending the rest of my life with this wonderful guy. I’m just so lucky to have him.
He cries over me, just the thought of losing me, brings him to tears. Saw that already and I believe that.I asked him why he was crying over me, he said there are a lot of girls out there with different price tags.. But I’m the only one and a very rare and precious one that no price tags can compare… I find it very very flattering..
Oh well, what can I say.. Nothing just I Love you Baby and thanks for loving. I can’t promise you that we will have a perfect relationship but what I can promise is to love you the perfect way I know…
Happy monthsary… I love you
Tagalog Romantic Quotes
23 Nov 2008 32 Comments
in Inspirational, Life, Love Tags: Love, quotes, romantic quotes, tagalog
Ang pag-ibig ay parangutot . Kahit anong gawin mo ay napakahirap itago at pag-ibinuga mo ang kimkim na damdamin, maamoy ng lahat hindi ka man umamin. “
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mnsn trip ktng inisin
asarin
pikunin..
tpos ako
ttwa lng
suss!
wg ka mg-alala
praan ko lng un pra sbhn n..
ang saya ko kc
anjan ka…Ü
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Ikaw ang
mahal ko,
ikaw ang
mahal kong,
tunay na tunay.
Ang laging
panaginip ko’y
tanging ikaw.
Ngunit ang totoo’y
madalas mong
mapag-alinlanganan
ang puso kong
tapat sa
pagsintang
di mo alam
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Galing ni god no? Alam nya kung saan magiging masaya ang mga tao…Kung saan sila pwede magmahal at mahalin ng totoo…Kung saan yung langit dito sa mundo… Kaya pala…Nilagay nya ko malapit sa yo
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Our closeness means a lot to me. You laugh, I laugh. You cry, I cry. You jump out of the window, I won’t. Instead, I’ll catch you and say, “*** ka! Walang iwanan, diba?”
Pwedeng pahiram ng cell? Tatawag kasi ako sa heaven. Irereport ko na nakita ko na yung nawawala nilang angel. Pero teka, ok ka lang ba? Baka kasi nasaktan ka nung nahulog ka.
There are times I want to be mad. There are times I want to give you up. There are times I want to cry. But no matter how many times I think about that, I always end up saying, “Mahal na mahal ko talaga si Ace, eh!”
Whenever I make your phone beep, I know that at one point you’ve uttered “si Ace lang pala” and I couldn’t blame you for that. But at any rate, I just want you to know that this “Ace lang” cares for you so much.
Remember nung nagwish ka sa falling star na sana may magmahal sayo ng lubos? The next day, sabi mo sakin di ka na naniniwala sa falling star. Kung alam mo lang, love na kita bago ka pa nagwish.
Wag mong isiping nag-iisa ka. Para saan pa ko? Wag mong isiping malungkot ka. Para saan pa ang mga ngiti ko? Pag inisip mo na wala nang nagmamahal sayo, para mo na ring sinabing wala nang Ace dito sa mundo!
Pag nagmahal ako, gusto ko yung kagaya mo. Pag umibig ako, gusto ko yung katulad mo. Pero paano kung wala nang kagaya mo? Wala nang katulad mo? Hindi ba pwedeng ikaw na lang ang mahalin at ibigin ko?
Sa buhay ko, meron akong minahal, merong minamahal at siguro may mamahalin pa. Alam mo kung saan ka dun? Ikaw yung tipong binabalik-balikan.
Pag wala ka na, di na ako iiyak. Pag wala ka na, di na ako malulungkot. Pag wala ka na, di na ako matatakot. Pag wala ka na, di na ako magmumukhang tanga. Alam mo kung bakit? Kasi wala na rin ako.
Tumingin ako sa langit, nakita kita. Binuksan ko ang radyo, narinig kita. Naghanap ako ng matatambayan, nakasama kita. Nanood ako ng TV, ikaw ang bida. Baliw na ba ko? O miss lang kita?
Someone once asked me if I really love you. I just kept quiet, closed my eyes, smiled, opened my eyes and
Sometimes I feel as if I don’t have any reason to live. I just want to disappear, escape and hide from the world. But when I think of you, I find myself saying, “Buti na lang buhay ako.”
Bakit ba ganon? Pare-pareho sila. Lahat iniwan ako, lahat sinaktan ako. Pero bakit ganon? Gusto ko pa ring magmahal? Alam mo kung bakit? Kasi alam kong darating ka.
If you were here beside me, I would stare at your face, look into your eyes, hold your hand very tight and kiss you. Then as I look at your face, I would wish to God na sana akin ka na lang.
Si Ace? Ok lang! Makulit, moody, minsan matigas ang ulo, pasaway. Mabait? Hmm, oo. Pero pag nawala yan, sus! Mamamatay ako!
There are a lot of people asking what made me fall for you, I just smiled. You know why? Well, why would I tell them? They might just fall for you the way I did. Selfish na kung selfish, akin ka lang.
Sabi nila wag daw kitang sasaktan. Sabi nila mahalin daw kita ng lubusan. Alam kong di ko kaya pero gagawin ko. Di dahil tama, di dahil nararapat, di dahil sabi ng iba. Simple lang. Dahil mahal naman talaga kita.
Sa dami ng mga simpleng bagay na dumaan at nawala sa buhay ko, ikaw ay ang simpleng bagay na ayokong palampasin dahil sa dahilang ikaw lang ang simpleng bagay na kumumpleto sakin.
If I only have one hour left to live and I’m with you that day, I’ll lay my head unto your shoulder as I feel the breeze touch my skin and say, “Pasandal lang po muna, ha? Matagal po akong mawawala, eh.”
I can’t blame you if one day you’ll walk out of my life. However, expect me to give up everything just to keep you in sight. If I fail, please give me a chance to say, “Gagawin ko lahat wag ka lang umalis.”
Sad Love quotes
03 Nov 2008 27 Comments
in Love, Personal Tags: broken heart, Love, quotes, sad love quotes
Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes… you get it back and live happily ever after.
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Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?
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When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut… it will heal, but there will always be a scar.
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May God put a spell on you… so you won’t forget me.
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Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn’t hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he’s not here
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You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.
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When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.
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When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn’t handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.
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was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken — and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. unknown sad love quotes
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With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn’t I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I’ll constantly wonder what went wrong. I’ll forever think of what I could’ve did that was never done.
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I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was
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I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day
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There’s this place in me where your finger prints still rest… your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo… It’s the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me
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A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.
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I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won’t come after me, and I guess that’s what hurts the most.
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You hurt me once… shame on you. You hurt me twice… shame on me.
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True love? I used to believe it existed, but when you’ve had your heart torn out and thrown on the floor, you just don’t care anymore. . Ask me why I keep on loving
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when It’s clear that you don’t feel the same way for me… the problem is that as much as I can’t force you to love me, I can’t force myself to stop loving you.
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. When you remember how hard it is to change yourself, you begin to understand what little chance we have of changing others.
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Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they were even there
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Love can tear you apart… it can kill you. But if you’re lucky, it can put you back together.
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It hurts to see you walk away. For admit it or not, you were an important part of my life and the time we shared will forever be a part of me. So even though I realize that it was never meant to be, still, it hurts.
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You have been the treasure in my hand. You have been the one who always stood beside me. So unaware, I foolishly believed that you would always be there. But then there will come a day, when I will turn my head and you will slip away.
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I hate you…and then I love you…it’s like I want to throw you off a cliff….then rush to the bottom to catch you
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For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those “it might have been
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I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain. I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end. I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend, but I always thought that I’d see you again.
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Oh, I shouldn’t care or wonder where and how you are. But I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before, ‘cause I’m not supposed to love you anymore.
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It hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking.
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I can’t cry hard enough for you to hear me.
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The tears I wish to wipe away, will run unchecked for another day. Alas, that is the price I pay.
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No, I can’t erase the wrong I’ve done but I hope you can give me another chance. Because if you were me, you would want the same and I’d give that chance to you.
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You love to hate the one who loves the one you hate to love.
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Even if my heart should call out your name in the rain. Even if these arms should want to embrace you again. And even if I’m all cried out and no longer in pain… I’ll never fall in love that way again.
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Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I’m only falling apart. – “Total Eclipse of the Heart
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I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
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We are never so defenseless against suffering as when we love. .
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The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.
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Goin’ stronger
27 Oct 2008 2 Comments
in Inspirational, Life, Love, Music, Personal Tags: baby love, Love, nicole, Personal, proud
Last week has been a very nice and peaceful week for us. Although last week, my love is quite restless because of his problems. I understand how he feels, a lot of people depends on him. He has to be strong. I realized that our relationship is getting stronger and makes us more closer to each other.
I was surprised when he told me last Tue, “You know I got a song for you?”. And I asked, “What is it?”.. So he let me listen to this song..
Who would have thought a guy like him would dedicate such cute and romantic song for a girl. While he was singing at the top of his voice with matching dance choreography, I felt so loved and appreciated. No one has ever made me feel like this. I asked him if the entire lyrics is dedicated to me, oh well some of us just dedicate certain part of a song aight? But he said, “yes, my baby love. The entire song is how I feel and you make me feel”. Below is the lyrics of this song.. It really made me calm whenever I feel like bursting. After listening to this song, I listen to this song everyday to start my day right..
(Nicole)
I remember like it was yesterday
first kiss and I knew you changed the game
you had me, exactly, where you wanted
and i’m on it, and I aint ever gon let you get away
holding hands never made me feel this way
so special, boy its your..
your smile, we so in Love (lalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in Love (Lalalalalaaa)
and I just can’t get enough of your
lalala Lovee
yeeah we so in love LOVE
I want you to know…You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everythingIn a minute now we’re still holding it down
butterflies everytime he come around
you make me, so crazy, its crazy, ohh baby
I don’t ever wanna be with no one else
you’re the only one that ever made me mad
you’re special, boy it’s your, your style
we so in Love (lalalalalaaa)
yeeeah we so in love Lalalalalalaa
and I just can’t get enough
of your lalala Love
yeah thats all i’m thinking of
LOVE, I want you to knowYou are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come upohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everythingeverything everything ohh
everything everything ohh(Guy)
You always and forever you my sunshine
on my mind constant
think about you all the time (you’re my everything)(Nicole)
Everything everything ohh
everything everything ohh(Guy)
you ma new school (love)
you ma old school (love)
and it’s true you’re the one i’m thinking of(Nicole)
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everythingYou are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everythingYou are my baby love my baby love
you make the sun come up ( you make the sun come up on a cloudy day)
ohh boy (ohh boy)
you’re my every every every everythingeverything everything ohh
everything everything ohhyou are my baby baby baby babe love
everything everything ohh
everything everything ohhyou’re my everything
you are my baby baby baby baby love
And then Saturday came, I was like texting him and I felt he was cold. But to my surprise, he called me and I was shocked that he introduced me to his bestfriend. And I was speechless to know what he was telling to his friends about me. His bestfriend told me that my love told him that I am smart, caring, thoughtful, loving and someone he can talk in straight English. The last part really made me laugh. And his bestfriend asked me if I can introduce him to someone like me, because he also wants to get what my boyfriend is experiencing now. And my boyfriend said ” Sorry, she is mine and nobody can be like her”. It made me smile and realized that he is really proud of me.
Maybe in the last past few weeks, I was afraid to trust him. Not that I don’t love him, but I have been hurt a lot of times before. And when I realized just how much proud he is of me, I told myself, enough of my doubts and fears. I should learn to trust him that no matter what happens, he will always be my love. We are destined for each other. We both came in our lives, just right in time. In time we both need someone to love, hang on and share our burdens. This makes us more closer and appreciate each other more. We are not perfect, but we know that despite our flaws, we can see a perfect person for us. Because they made us better person. We both feel that we are willing to spend the rest of our lives with each other. Just like what he said and the song goes, I make the sun goes up and I am everything he dream of, I am his everything.
There is only one rule in love. And that is to make you love happy
I love you so much baby. I want you to be the father my baby. I am excited and happy as we both enjoy our journey called life. You’re my everything baby love.
Bob Ong’s quote
23 Oct 2008 19 Comments
in Humor, Inspirational, Life, Love, Personal Tags: Bob ong, Humor, Inspirational, Life, Love, quotes
PAG-IBIG (LOVE)
“Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..” (If you don’t love a person, don’t give a motive for him/her to love you)
“Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.” (Everybody gets serious if they are truly in love. However, not everybody is strong in temptations)
“Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.” (Use your heary to take care those people you care about. Use your head to take care of yourself)
“Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.” (Don’t let go of something you don’t want to use holding by other people).
“Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.” (Don’t hold something that you know you will just let go)
“Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.” (Don’t hold on to something if you know you’re already holding one)
“Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”( It is just like an elevator. Why push yourself if there’s no place for you. There is a stair, you just ignore it.)
“Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”(If you will just wait for someone to flirt with you, nothing will happen to your life.You should also flirt)
“Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.” (If you like someone and he/she does’t like you, let it be. Who knows in the next day, you don’t like him/her also,it so happens, he/she felt it first)
“Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”(Leave him/her if you’re not happy anymore.There is no cure for stupid only initiative)
“Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”(If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t complain. Because there are also people that you don’t love but they love you. So it’s even.)
“Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila? (Why do children don’t want to take a nap in the afternoon?Do they know if they learn to love, they cannot sleep even if they want to)
“Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.” (Not sadness or fear is the difficult part of being alone. It is the acceptance that out of billions of people in the world, there is nobody who even tried to fight just to be with you)
“Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!” (If you love somebody that doesn’t deserve you and you got hurt, don’t blame your heart. Your heart is only beating to supply blood to your body. Now if you’re good at anatomy and blame your hypothalamus that controls your emotions, you’re wrong again. Why?For Christ sake, don’t blame all of your body organs for your pains in your life. Remember this, you will only be happy, if you learn that not your heart,brain,liver or intestines has nothing to do with all the things that happens in your life because IT IS YOURSELF!)
PAG-AARAL (STUDIES)
“Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!).”(Study hard.Because if you will stop, you will regret when you get old that you never experienced the joy brought by no classes or suspension of classes or teachers being absent)
“Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba’t-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan…” (You learned that there are free lectures in the world, and it is you who will make the syllabus. There are a lot of teachers outside school, it is your decision who you will choose to teach you. All of us are enrolled now in a university, there are a lot of free subjects that are difficult, but because it is free, it is your lost if you drop.One by one we will graduate, in different ways. Our only diploma are the memories of whatever help or love that we left in this world that we once tried to change)
“Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa.”(Encourage everybody to have at least one favorite book in their life. Because there will be more wretched than those people who are literate but doesn’t read)
“dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung ‘di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang ‘yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela.” (You will only study for two decades. If you will not persevere, five decade of poverty will substitute.If the youth only knows about this, I believe no one will avoid school)
BUHAY (IN GENERAL) (LIFE)
“nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.” ( I’ve learned that final exam isn’t the passing rate of life. It is not multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks that is being answered but and essay that we write everyday. It will be judged not based whether we have right or wrong answer but based on the value of what we write. Erasures are allowed)
“Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.” (You can eat a siopao with a pad of cat or walk in broken glasses without foot cover but never ever try drugs. If you cannot avoid it, seek help of your parents. Because they know cheaper supplier and they will never cheat on you)
“Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.” (Dream and strive to achieve it. Don’t blame your broken family, your useless boyfriend/girlfriend, crippled puppy or flying cockroaches. If your family has shortcomings to you,you can blame and rebel. Stop studying, marry someone, do drugs, dye your armpit hair. In the end, you will be the victim. A rebel that doesn’t prove anything and has good reason to yourself)
“Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa’yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?” (Achieve your dream. It is your obligation to yourself.If you want to eat tons of soil so you will be included in the Guiness book of record so our country will be proud of you, go ahead.Who the hell are they.Ignore whatever the people will say to stop you. If the scientists before didn’t strive, we are not living in Jupiter now. But we are not living in Jupiter now because the scientists before didn’t strive harder. Do you see the moral lesson?)
“Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras.” (I learned that as we grow, you will stumble a lot of times. Whether you get up or not, life will continue, the earth will still revolve and time will be exhausted)
HALO-HALO (ANYTHING)
“Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka.” (Don’t rush in marriage. Three, five or ten years from now, your standard will change and you will realize that it is not right to choose a partner just because she sounded like Debbie Gibson or can do break dancing. It is true that character is still more important. As the time passes, even your school heartrobs will look like bread. Believe me)
“ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko.” ( I don’t want to get used of the things that I will lose eventually)
“hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?” ( Are you look for me or my absence?)
“hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. ” (Not because you cannot understand something, it is already a lie. And not all you can understand is truth)
“Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa’yo – ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e gumagana ang utak ng tao.” (They said that in any problem, there is only one person who can help you- IT IS YOURSELF. They are right. I surrendered myself. Maybe that is why God gave conscience, because he knows not all the time our brains are functioning.)
“Obligasyon kong maglayag, karapatan kong pumunta sa kung saan ko gusto, responsibilidad ko ang buhay ko.” (It’s my obligation to sail, it is my right to go to anywhere I want to go, my life is my responsibility)
“Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko.” (I am a bad person, like you, in the same way that you’re a good person like me)
“Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala.” (It is better to fail in doing something that win in doing nothing)
“iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala.” (Doing nothing is different from not doing anything)
“iba ang informal gramar sa mali !!!” (Informal grammar is different from wrong grammar)
” Para san ba ang cellphone na may camera? Kung kailangan sa buhay un, dapat matagal na kong patay.” (What is the use of phones with camera? If it is really needed in life, I am already dead a long time ago)
Forget about me
16 Oct 2008 Leave a Comment
in Life, Love, Music, Personal Tags: forget about me, lil bit, Love
